The Thought Of You

chapter seventeen.

                        *Alex pov.*

Hm- hm hmmm hm- hm hmm hm- is the hums I woke up to. The sun shinned bright through Val's curtain's. Oops I mean our curtains. The tiny pieces of glass on the floor was covered in dried blood. The sun reflected off the glass blinding me dearly.

It looks so aesthetic. I love it. I dragged my body across the floor to reach the glass. Nothing was wrong with me it was just that I'm being super duper lazy. I felt dizzy a little too. I'm just tired, get over it. Woah, this glass is... Bueatiful. I haven't ever seen dried blood look so perfect on glass reflecting the light over it.

Hold up... I looked closer. I saw a women who looks almost the exact as me just with dried blood and scars on her face. So realistic.. I reached to touch the scars I saw in the mirror but on my face. I felt the dried blood on my forehead. I trailed my fingers down to the out corner of my eye, dried blood with a scare has been placed there too.

What happened to me.... As I thought hard the memory clicked back and came flashes back in my head like a wave. Omg Val, is he okay. I stumbled to stand up but got there. As I quickly preceded to unlock the door the humming stopped. I swinged the door open to see Val standing infront of the door.

He didn't look at me he looked down at the ground hiding his face what it seems like. I grabbed his face and looked into his eyes. I had to see if it was really him. I stared into his eyes for two seconds and knew it was him. The real him. I smiled so big as the fear washed away from my face. I was so worried about you! I pulled him in towards me and gave him the biggest hug.

Val grunted like he always did when I hugged him too tight. I heard the tiredness in his grunts. "Why didn't you get any sleep? Why do you sound so tired?" I asked. People usually say I'm being clingy asking too much questions but I just have too many questions to begin with so I rather much ask all at once rather than have an hour long conversation about something you could have told me in a second. "I was so worried about you I didn't want to sleep... What happened to your face." Val says tiredly but somehow awake.

Worried why? I understand he was out to get me last night but why worried, I was safe in his room. "Oh I just smashed my head in your mirror-" I realized how bad that sounded after I had said it. "I'll pay you back!" I rushed out. "I'm not worried about the mirror I'm worried about you... Did you smash that mirror on your face, because of me?" Val looked at me with his sad sorrow eyes at the moment. "Im- I'm not sure"  I am very sure, I just don't know want him to feel bad or know he gotten to me. "If it's because what I said I didn't mean any of it. I swear. " He assured me.

Didn't mean any of it? What about the I love you part? What about the part I enjoyed. Which part wasn't real. "Then why did you say it." I said a little hurt but I can't blame him completely he wasn't himself. "B- because I knew it would have effected you in the way I wanted it to." Val said  as I heard in his voice that he didn't know how to word it.

I rolled my eyes thinking if I had actually did things with him that night just to find out it was all an act in the morning. I would admit to being hurt if that actually happened. "Alex you know I would never do that to you, it wasn't me it was the drug-" I cut him off before he could even finish, blaming it in the drugs I see. "You're such a dog." I proceeded to walk away but than Val held tight on my arm. I tried to pull away, "get off of me!" I yelled.

Val didn't move an inch or flitch."you're not leaving me here all by myself again. We are going to talk about this or were just going to sit here together being mad for no reason when we could communicate. I certainly didn't stay up all night waiting to check on you for you to up and leave the minute I have time to."