The Thought Of You

Chapter Fourteen.

I was speechless, he has so much trust in someone who just betrayed him. "I'm sorry Val.. I treated you like that and said those things about you." I said. I'm such an asshole, he took me in when I had no where to go. Val walked over to me and gave me a hug and didn't let go "I forgive you, because I love you. I will always forgive you" Val says before he kissed my forehead.

Val words felt so warm, i want this moment right here. With me in his arms as he speaks to me with a warming voice that made every part of my body warm.

Even though he will always forgive me. I wouldn't dare to break him or his trust again. It hurt me to see that I'm the reason he was hurting. I want to be the best I can be for the both of us. Even if that means cutting all my bad habits like being selfish and stuff like that.

I have to admit I feel bad for him. Why is he in love with me? The worst person for him to be with. "I'm sorry.." I trailed off. "I said I forgive you-" Val said before I cut him off. "I'm sorry that you're in love with someone like me" I said being completely honest, "you deserve better." I whispered to val. I would love to be with him but I'm not his perfect wife he's looking for. The room fell silent. I could tell Val didn't know what to say, but I had said what was meant to be said.

"How do you know? I'm not sure about you? We've been friends for how long now? I think I had more time to think about this than you did. Because you're just now thinking about it." Val said as making circles in my back as we hugged. "Maybe it's time for you to be selfish" Val said. "And stop thinking I deserve better, because if you want us to be more than bestfriends you have to think about if you want me, because I'm head over heels for you" Val said. He knows if we where normal bestfriends this conversation would technically ruin our friendship. Good thing we're weirdos.

Speaking of dating, I thought of yummy sushi. "Val could you go out to eat with me and James. James told me that Jessica and kole would be coming. I don't want to go alone."  after I had said that Val had sighed "you don't have to go you know," Val reminded me. "I'm going. Are you going to come? it's Sushi's drums" I promised James I would--i don't know though that part is still kind of blurry to me-- "my sushi is way better than sushi's drums, I'll just fix you a tons so then you don't have to--" Val said before I cut him off. "So they can come over and eat with us? That's what you're saying?" I questioned Val, Val quickly shook his head no. "Okay then, I'm going. I would love for you to come with me, but I understand." I said as I unleashed our hug to go out.

"Alex. Not to be that guy but I don't want you to go, if I'm being honest here" Val complained. Good thing we aren't together then right. Can't control where I go, don't be like kole, Val. I thought to myself. He's not kole, he's Val. He actually care for your well being. I turned back to Val "fine, I won't go then. You are going to be the one who tells them I'm not going though. I can't put up with their bullshit" I said as I was about to sit on the center of the bed but then realized.

"Really?" Val asked. "I mean you said you didn't want me to go, didn't you?" I replied.

"Y--yeah I just thought you wouldn't care.." Val trailed off.  As I changed the bed sheets a dived on the bed I laid there as if I was in paradise. "Of course I care, but youuuu are going to fix me sushi later right? Oh! I could help! Teach me how you fix them!" I squealed in excitement.

Val eyes shot open as if he was surprised. His jaw had been dropped open a little as well. "Val to earth? You there?" I joked. Val shook his head and smiled but not too wide "ah okay, let me just go put some clothes on" Val said as he went in his dresser to look for some clothes. I started humming, then Val looked at me over his shoulder. "Whatcha humming to?" Val asked. "Nothing Val, nothing... Hey are you still going to that masquerade ball thingy?" I asked. He mentioned it to me last year how his last year at university he had to attend a masquerade ball and he has been practicing ever since he found out about it. "Yeah, I kind of have to go" Val said a bit worried.