Temptation 18+

Chapter 44

(Y/n POV)

Moments later the room was empty of the three men only leaving the silence, me, and Jin. "Are you ok?" Jin asked with a serious tone. "Yea I'm fine I was just messing with them." I said with a giggle. "Don't scare me like that. I could have murdered them for that." He said with a sigh. "I'm sorry hyung I wont scare you again. I'm just glad I can laugh. So much has happened since I got here. So much good and bad it's almost too much for me to even grasp onto. One thing I can say for certain I love it here. I love everyone here." The moment I said that real tear started flowing out of my eyes. "I know you love it here, and love us dearly. I know this because we all love you just as much. We would do anything for you Y/n even if it cost us our life." He said bringing me into a gentle hug. "I don't know if everything is just catching up to me or is it's just my hormones messing with me." I say though the tears. "Y/n I think it's both." He says. "How did the talk go with you, Jimin, and Yoongi?" Jin asked in a serious tone again. "I want to be able to put it all behind us, but I'm still scared. I don't think he would do anything on purpose, but I can't be too sure since he did say he lost control over himself. I know that also puts a lot of pressure on everyone else due to the fact that he hasn't been able to help with me. I want to be able to give him a chance though." I said I felt like I wasn't making much sense considering that I just said I was still scared, but yet I'll also give him a chance. I still don't really want to be alone with him, but I'm never going to find out until I try. "Well Y/n why don't we try tomorrow if Yoongi wants to take another walk. You know him, he doesn't like to just lay around." Jin replied breaking my train of thought. "I'll try, but what should I do if just in case he tries something?" I asked. "Here Y/n take this." He said handing me a little device with a button on it. "What is this?" I asked looking it all over. "That is a device I had Namjoon put together it will send an alert to my phone every time you press it. I was going to give it to you when you got closer to having the baby." He said. "Thank you Jin that will make me feel so much better." I said with a smile. "While I'm here do you want me to check you over or anything since you were on the floor?" He asked.  I thought about it for a bit then shook my head no. I didn't land hard or anything so everything should be just fine. "I'll call for you if I feel like something is wrong." I said.

After a bit of us talking Jin left the room sending Yoongi back in. Wonho helped him back onto the bed then leaving shortly after. "How dare you lie on me." He said crossing his arms and staring at me with squinted eyes. "That's what you get for calling your soon to be wife and the mother of your baby crazy." I said crossing my arms. "Babe you know I was just messing with you." He said with sad puppy dog eyes. "Still I'm not crazy. Crazy for you maybe, but that's about all. Even then how would I be the crazy one? Have you not sat down and thought about your line of work?" I asked with my arms still crossed. "Yea your some what right. Though I will say that you'd have to be crazy to fall in love with someone like me. I'm not the best looking guy or best acting guy. I'm very hard headed and like to get what I want." He said not taking his eyes off of me. I felt my cheeks getting red with how deep into my eyes he was staring. I leaned over towards him letting my lips connect with his. I laid my head on his shoulder. "Yea you're right I might just be crazy." I whispered into his ear. "I love you Y/n" Yoongi said. "I love you too Yoongi." I replied back. 

The silence filled the room as he held on to me with my head on his shoulder. A sharp sudden pain made me jump and gasp in pain making Yoongi let go of me. "Y/n I'm so sorry I didn't mean to." Yoongi said. My back was still very sore and he had rubbed against one of the wounds. "No you're ok. I know you didn't mean to do it." I said as I looked towards him noticing tears forming in his eyes. "Y/n I'm so sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most. I should have been stronger when they came to get you that night. I should have noticed something was not right that night, but I didn't. This is all my fault. I let you and our baby girl down. I shouldn't even be the leader of this group if I can't even protect the one I love the most. I have no business being a leader at all." Yoongi said as covered his eyes with his sleeved arm. I could see the tears falling down his cheeks and hear the shakiness of his voice. "Yoongi don't say things like that. Me and you both know you wouldn't have been able to hold off that many people. I'm shocked you even survived, because they even told me they left you to die. There is a whole reason why you are the leader, and there is a reason they all look up to you like they do. You don't just treat your members like workers or slaves. To you they are your family, you wouldn't let them down unless your dead just like they would do the same for you. The whole reason why I'm even here right now having your baby is because you saved me from Lay. You showed me from day one how strong you really were." I replied. 

"Every time you've needed me I wasn't able to protect you. Lay was able to take you from me twice. I'm useless as a boyfriend and leader. I wasn't even able to stop Jimin from raping you, and I'm his leader. Y/n I don't even know why you are even with me." He said in a low tone. "Min Yoongi I never in my life ever want to hear that last sentence come from your mouth again. I'm with you because I love you. You're not useless, if anything I'm the useless one. None of this would have ever happened if it wasn't for me. If I never came here everyone here would be fine. No one would have gotten hurt because of me. As far as Jimin one we need to start letting it go, two how were we supposed to know he was going to do that? Yoongi I want you to know no matter what happens to me or you I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I don't want anyone else, but you. To me you are perfectly imperfect. Now come here." I say then open my arms up to him. He looked over at me then gave me a weak smile. I know he's upset about everything but he doesn't deserve to blame himself for anything. We all know that everything that has happened no one could have stopped it. He gently leaned into my arms as I slowly ran my fingers through his hair. "Yoongi I need you to listen to me." I said in a gentle voice. I almost felt like if I wasn't gentle with him he'd break. He nodded his head without saying a word. "I love you Yoongi. If it wasn't for you or our baby girl I would have lost my mind there. They told me you were dead Yoongi, but for some reason I didn't think that was true. The thought that I'd be able to see you and our baby is the only thing that kept me sane." I said hoping it would help a little bit. 

"Y/n Jin didn't want to tell you this, but that night I should have died.  He told me every wound I have were vital spots. I know for sure I should have died. All I remember about the night before I passed out was I'm going to die, and that you were going to be gone forever. I didn't care what happened to me I just didn't want you to be hurt. I knew if you were to be hurt so was our baby. I hate myself for not being able to protect you. I should have been able to protect you." Yoongi said in between hiccups of tears. "Yoongi there is no reason to hate yourself at all. You were only able to do what one person could do in that situation. All that matters to me is that you are alive, our baby if fine, and we are together now. We should be happy in this moment." I said still trying to watch what I say. This is the first time I've ever seen him this upset, and I really didn't want to make it any worse. "Y/n you're right I should be happy that I am able to hold you, and to even have this conversation with you right now. I really should, but as hard as I'm trying I can't. I love you with everything I have, and the thought of losing you kills me inside. If I was to ever lose you I'd lose myself." He said trying to dry off his face. "Yoongi stop everything is ok. I'm fine and the baby is fine. Even if Lay's men wants revenge I'm sure it would be a while. Most of his men are dead or badly injured. It would take a while for them to get their team back together. I also want you to take a moment and think about this. We only have eight men counting Wonho and one women. Lay had close to fifty men, and our team took them out." I said with confidence. 

He looked at me for a few minutes with tear filled red eyes. "You're right we did do that." He said in a low tone. He lowered his head letting his hair cover his face took a deep breath then looked back up at me. "I love you." He said looking back up at me. The tears finally stopped falling down his cheek. I reached over cupping his face into my hands. "I love you too." I said before pressing my lips onto his. I carefully wrapped my arms around him pulling his closer to me. He laid his hands on my arms to make sure he didn't touch my back.  We held each other for a while before hearing a knock on the already open door making us part. "Awe look at the two of you." Jin cooed. "Yea yea what do you want?" Yoongi said. His eyes weren't red anymore, but his face was still puffy. "Hey now don't be harsh. I brought food for you." Jin said placing his hand over his heart as if Yoongi's coldness offended him. "Are you hungry?" Jin asked as he brought in one of the trays then placing it in front of me. I nodded at him as I started feeling my stomach growl. "I can't wait til the both of you can come eat in the dinning room again. We really miss eating together." Jin said as he brought Yoongi's tray to him. "I feel the same. It's been a while since we were able to eat at the table as one big family." I said then stuffing my mouth full of food. I hadn't ate good in a while so I couldn't help but scarf my food down. I wiped my face with the back of my hand then felt eyes on me. I looked around realizing Jin and Yoongi were both staring at me. "What?" I asked knowing why. "Do you want me to bring you some more?" Jin asked. "I'm sorry." I said. I didn't like being stared at like that. I mean I understand why. I just ate a whole meal with in a few minutes. "Y/n don't be sorry I just didn't think your appetite would be back this fast." Jin said in a comforting tone.