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Chapter 6-"Your jaw's hanging sweetie"

-Past-

2 years ago

Today's our sophmore prom, all of us decided to just go as friends rather than fussing around with dates and so on. We were supposed to meet at Aria's place to pick up the girls at around 5, it's 6 now and we're still waiting for them.

 So much for "If you all aren't there at sharp 5 we will be going on our own". Sighing, I looked around to see Rowan in the same position opposite to me. After a solid half an hour Aria and Poppy finally paraded down the stairs. They were only 1 and a half hours late perfectly on time. All those thoughts washed away as I saw Poppy walking down. She wore a red ball gown and had her short hair pinned up with pearls. 

She looked stunning and that was an understatement. She smiled as she looked at me. She came next to me and whispered, "Your jaw's hanging sweetie" and she turned towards Aria as she came down. 

Aria looked stunning as ever, she's like my little sister so seeing Rowan's jaw hit the ground wasn't exactly something I was a fan of, but it's about time they realised their feelings for each other. I watched the both of them with a warm smile as Popcorn smiled at all 3 of us. We headed to the school and holy shit. I never knew our school gym could look this good.

I knew our council was pulling all stops for this prom but damn they outdid themselves. We met with the others and took pictures, the usual. Most of the night went okay I assume, except the end. Popcorn and I always had a deal, the last dance of each school dance we ever have would be with each other.

 As the night winded down I managed to find her semi drunk next to the fountain with Aria playing chaperone for her and rest. How they sneaked alcohol in I'll never know. I swear if it wasn't for Aria or me all of these shitheads would have passed out by now. 

I helped Popcorn and asked her if she was still up for our last dance. Drunk Poppy is one of the cutest things ever. She nodded as she went "Yea yea I'm fine I wanna do the last dance" and smiled. She seemed awfully exhausted, considering the fact that for most of the dance she was resting her head on my chest and was half asleep.

 I kissed her forehead and she looked up at me as she asked, "What was that for?". I smiled and replied "You look awfully cute today". I swear I saw her blush before she put her head back down. I closed my eyes as well as we danced resting my head on hers. She looked up to me and mumbled something along the lines of " I love you" or " Don't leave me". I looked at her and mumbled back "I love you too, and I promise. I won't".

 We both were smiling as we went back to the rest. All of us got ready to head back to our homes, Aria was dropping Rowan off and I was dropping Popcorn. She fell asleep while we were getting back to her house. 

I reached her house after a solid 15 minutes to see her dead asleep in her seat. I tried waking her up, but to absolutely no one's shock she didn't wake up. It's practically impossible to wake popcorn up if she's fallen into a nice deep sleep. 

I carried her on my back and used my key to her house to drop her off in her room. I removed her heels and placed her on her bed. Her room is always a mess god. I cleaned it up a little as she cozied into her sheets. I kissed her forehead and told her to sleep tight as I headed back home. 

-Present, Rhysand-

I was sipping on my milkshake when that memory randomly came into my brain. It was my happy thought. If I got pissed I'd always think of that or her so I'd calm down. She never deserved what I did to her. Never did, Never will. It hurts to be so away from her when she's right in front of me. It hurt when Rowan told me she would cry herself to sleep, she'd harm herself, skip meals and get 5 hours of sleep in a week. It hurt me to see her wasting her precious life away 

I hate myself for being one of the reasons behind all of this when I knew she needed me. I hate myself so much for breaking promises and for leaving my Popcorn all alone. I just wish she knew how much I hate myself for doing so. I had to break something or do anything with this hatred. I just drove to an abandoned part of the road and started throwing and hitting and breaking everything I could find.

A/n 

I'm so sorry I haven't been updating in like a week I just finished my exams so yea I'll update more. AND HOLY SHIT WE'RE GONNA HIT 150 LIKE SKSKSK THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE WE'VE BEEN getting. ily guys sm and ty for the views and votes

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A/n from the future because im editing~ since ik alot of you guys would be completely skipping over your sleep to read on wattpad, it's my one request please do get sleep it's a requirement and if there's anything bugging you please don't think twice, and rant to me :)

So please do sleep :)

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