Chapter 9-"Jump off a cliff"

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I woke up with the worst headache I've ever had. Holy shit I went overboard yesterday. It took me a few minutes to realise that I was still in my dress from last night and that I was a mess. I saw texts from Aria asking if I reached home and I replied with a "Yea" and went into my washroom when my brain shot awake. 

Why would Aria ask if I reached home safely when she was the one who dropped me. I ran back into my bedroom, tripping over my heels lying on the floor and was about to text Aria when I noticed a sticky note on my bedside table, curiosity peaked in me as I went ahead to pick it up.

 My eyes processed the following words, "I'm sorry again Popcorn, you never deserved anything I did to you. It wasn't fair. Take an advil and text Aria, she'd be worried. Ilysfm, Rhy. P.S Thanks for keeping my hoodie safe, it's my favourite. Keep it btw, you always loved it. I smiled at the note when I remembered that this isn't the same Rhy. Scowling, I wanted to rip the note apart but a small part of me didn't. A small part of me wanted to keep the note.

 I sighed at myself and went to my bookshelf and picked up my favourite book. Opening the middle page I kept the note straightened in it so I'd never lose it. The book had all my notes from Rhy, ranging from small ones we passed in class to his apologises for doing something stupid. Grinning at the notes I forgot about the fact that he found out about his hoodie. As angry as I was at Rhy, I did keep the hoodie and occasionally wore it when I missed him alot. 

Pushing all my emotions aside, my brain had a logical doubt. How and Why did Rhy end up dropping me off at my house. After spending 15 minute trying to find a reason, I heard my mom yelling, "Poppy are you even up yet, its the second day of school and you've got only 15 minutes." 

Whipping my head towards the clock in my room I swore and got ready. I pulled my hair up into what I can only call a "lazy" bun, I dressed in black jeans and a hoodie. I rushed down while slipping on my Vans and stuffed a pop tart into my mouth. 

 

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I reached school. 10 minutes late. I don't know which genius decided to cause traffic at 8 in the morning but here we are. Rushing into AP Chemistry I took a seat next to Aria. I managed to sneak in a "Hey kiddo, wait for me after class I need to talk". Aria nodded and we both got onto our work.

 Amidst our teacher going on about chemical formulae, I decided to try and attempt to recollect what I did last night. To no avail, I gave up and just waited so Aria could tell me. I suppose during my span of daydreaming and being lost in my thoughts the bell rang signalling the next period. I caught up with Aria and asked her about last night. 

She explained, "I was looking for you so you don't drink the entire stock of alcohol in the party when I bumped into Rhys, he was trying to keep Rowan sober as well. You both should be really glad you've got Rhys and I, drinking away the entire stock I swear. " I rolled my eyes at her but she's got a point. 

Rowan and I have a tiny habit of getting overboard with drinks. I asked her to continue and she said, "We both eventually ran into you drinking your 3rd bottle when Rhys told me to go and find Rowan and that he'd take care of you, after that all I remember is Rhys carrying you and asking for your key so he could drop you home" 

I dropped my jaw at her in disbelief. I reeled at her, "How could you trust me with him that too in the middle of the night, you're always hell bent on keeping me safe Aria. I feel betrayed." She rolled her eyes and simply said, "You chose to get drunk kiddo I told you not to and it's Rhys. He'd protect you even if it meant he had to give up burritos and burgers. Plus you're alive here and yelling at me so I'm gonna assume I made the right choice" I pursed my lips and sighed. 

In Math, I tried snapping all the bits of what happened last night together,when it hit me. I was crying and he was there. My eyes widened in realisation, I was crying because of him and he came looking for me. He hugged me and he apologised. Slowly everything started coming back to me.

 My conscience scolding me in the back, God poppy, couldn't you stay sober for once? You can't even hate him now that he actually feels bad and apologised. I started banging my head on my table. How could I be so stupid. I can't even hate him and I tried so bad to do so but no. My drunk smartass had to break down in his arms. God Poppy you're so stupid. 

 I decided to be logical after being so stupid and stopped moping and figured out what I'm gonna do next . After 30 mins of thinking, contemplating,overthinking and banging my head on the table in frustration. I came up with 4 possible solutions.

Run away.

Jump off the cliff.

Talk to Rhy and come to terms with it

Bang my head until I get Amnesia.

As tempting as 1,2,4 are, Aria would probably disown me if I did any of them and if I died, she'd prolly find a way to scold me even in hell. I guess I have to go with option 3. If I'm gonna do it, I might as well be honest with myself. I can't hate him or stay pissed at him. As shitty as it was when he shifted without telling me that he's going or atleast a goodbye I can't stay mad at him forever. He's Rhy. 

He's 101% gonna end up doing something borderline stupid and illegal. The bell rang and I groaned and headed towards the dreaded, AP biology. Take it from Rhy to make dread wanting to go for my favourite subject. 

I took my seat next to him and he looked at me in shock. He gulped anxiously and began. "Popcorn I'm so sorry. I didn't want to leave without telling. It was really sudden, my mom told me a week before we had to leave. I'm gonna agree it was foolish,stupid,pathetic and extremely selfish for me to leave without telling but I couldn't do it to you Poppy. I couldn't tell I was shifting when I promised I'd never leave you.

A small part of me was scared that if I left, you'd forget me. You'd move on with life and forget me and I'd just be a part of your childhood and I hated that thought. When you broke down yesterday it broke me Popcorn, to see you so broken and I hated it so much. I hate that I couldn't be there for you when you needed me so freaking much. It's not fair what I did to you and I get it if you want to hate me Popcorn but you mean the world to me and I just want you to be happy. I won't go again. 

If I have to I'll make sure I tell you and we'll work something out even though the probability of me leaving again is less. I promise, I'm so sorry Popcorn." I've gotta hand it to Rhy to give an entire apology speech in one breath. I took a deep breath and I told him, "It's okay, I forgive you." His reaction after that, is something I wished I had taken a pic of.


A/n. So. I tried to maintain an "updating" schedule which for obvious reasons didn't work out. Here I am again. Uploading 3 chapters in a span of 1 day once in a week. Ngl thts pretty productive for a human who's barely been submitting her work. I'm sorry you guys have gotta deal wid this, ill "try" to be more frequent. *laughs in knowing it's never gonna happen cause im lazy asf.*. But. WE'VE HIT 200 YA'LL. 2-0-0. not even kidding I didn't expect this much love when i first started writing this but I can't thank you guys enough. Tysfm for all the love serotonin has  been getting. I'm so proud of you guys tysfm. Ily guys :) 


here we go again for the picture. not mine. credits to pinterest and its owner. ily guys sm <3


A/n frm the future, this is moderately long chap so i didn't edit it, enjoy. eat ur meals and get 8 hours of sleep ya'll :)

 -yours truly 




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