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Chapter 28-"With all my love, Your Rhy."

-Present-

2 days later

It's been 2 days. 2 days since Poppy took her last breath. It's her funeral today. I came home that day. It didn't feel right, it felt like I was missing something. My parents looked at me with their eyes full of pity and grief. She was their daughter too. Sierra and Posie were crying with soft sobs too. I gave them a weak smile and went into my room. 

After that it was a blur. I switched my phone off, sat on my floor and sobbed. Sobbed until all the tears had run out for Poppy. Sobbed for our lost future together. Sobbed for the fact that she's not gonna be in my life everyday. She's not going to make me smile everyday. I spent the entire time locked in my room eating barely one meal. If she heard about this she would scold me for not eating my meals. "Rhy, there are 3 MEALS IN a day, all THREE which you need." I'd shrug but eat nevertheless.

I walked around my room, littered with Poppy. Her clothes lie in a section of my wardrobe, her pictures, her makeup bag, her letters. Her letters. I quietly scrambled to the Indigo box lying safely hidden and opened it. I was smiling softly as I read them. She made them for whenever I was sad or angry. I read and smiled to myself softly.

My mom knocked, told me the funeral is today at 11am. I was asleep I suppose, I stayed up since yesterday and slept around an hour ago. She asked me if I wanted to go. I contemplated just sitting in my room, but it would be my last time seeing my Popcorn and I still had a little something to give her.

I took a shower and got ready. I turned my phone on after long to ask if the rest were coming when I saw one unread voicemail. It was dated 3 days ago at 2am in the night from Popcorn. I opened it and I was immediately met with her voice.

 She sounded sad. "R-rhy so remember how I told you I found a book series? So I read it. It wasn't completed. There's another book coming out but in this t-the main lead died. The girl is left alone and and one of the female lead is now possessed and her boyfriend has to give his life up for 3 months. Why do I read books they wound me. Anyways thank you for listening to my rant. I know you probably won't hear this for a while. I love you, good night, sweet dreams Rhy."

I downloaded the voicemail and I felt tears falling down my own eyes. I took about another 15 minutes before walking out the house with my family.

We went to the church where the funeral was being held. I walked into a room full of her relatives, friends, and kids from our high school. I headed to her parents first. They were seated silently. They saw me and tears streamed down both their faces and I felt my own tears as I gave them a hug. They really needed it. 

I met Julie next, her face void of any emotions and her belly was growing. Aaron was next to her, rubbing her back as his own eyes glistened. I knelt down to Julie's level as her eyes pierced into mine. They looked alot like Popcorn's. She slowly sobbed, "She's gone Rhys. My baby sister is gone and I didn't even treat her right for most of it. I hate myself so much. So much. " I softly told her, "But you were there the last few months and you have no idea how happy that made her. So thank you for making her last months in this world happy. "

She looked at me with sad eyes and said thank you. Aaron and I had become really good friends over the months, he told me, "Thank you, you have no idea how much that'd help her." I smiled, "Anything for Julie."

I met the gang next. I didn't know what to tell them, they didn't know what to tell me. We sat in pin drop silence, it was a comfortable silence. All of us just sat with each other as we each mustered the courage and saw her one last time. 

I went last, with a box in my pocket. It was a promise ring. I was supposed to give it to her a month later, but I'd rather give it to her now. I walked up to her and looked down. She looked peaceful. 

She looked like she was happy, happy that she managed to change so many lives. I slipped the ring in and whispered, "It's not goodbye is it? You're just gonna be in a long deep sleep and I'll be there soon. So, see you soon. Just a few 50-60 years, I'll be there. I love you, Popcorn. See you soon."

I kissed her forehead and sat down again. It was time for the speeches. Julie went up first, "Dear Poppy. I know I wasn't the best sister to you, in fact the worst but I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't realise what you were going through. Sorry for being selfish and I'm so sorry for never considering your feelings. You are an amazing little sister Pops and I'm sure your niece would love you as her aunt. Look after us, look after her. I love you so much Popcorn. Thank you. "

I was next. I didn't prepare any speech or anything. Everyone looked at me as I slowly walked up the podium and spoke. "I'm sure you all know Poppy. Everyone in this room are people Poppy's either known or changed. She's made all of us smile,laugh and live. Always there for listening, giving advice and hugs. She deserved so much more and she still does. I wish she could see this room, full of people she's changed. I hope she's seeing this. I hope she's watching as we all tell her to see you soon. My precious Popcorn, you've made my last 10 years absolutely beautiful. I can't thank you enough. I can't apologise enough for hurting you. You'll always be such an important part of us. Thank you. See you soon, with all my love, your Rhy."

Tears glistened in everyone's eyes, soft sobs rang in the room. I had a soft peaceful smile. Poppy would have been proud.

I couldn't watch as they buried her so I told her parents and went to her house. I softly let myself in her room. It's exactly the same as the last time I was here. I smiled as her familiar scent wafted through the room. I picked up one of my hoodies from the floor, it smelt like her. I wore it on and slept on her bed. It was like sleeping with her. I soon fell into a peaceful slumber, with Poppy's existence all around me.

A/n I told you. He'll bid her a better see you soon. The next chapter will be a tad bit happier, i'm prolly gonna have 2 more chapters and then the eplilogues. Serotonin has been getting so much love, I couldn't be happier. Thank you. Thank you so much for the love. I love you guys sm.

-wid all my love, yours truly. :)

A/n SKSKS rhys and julie make me cry why do i do this to myself, anyways hope you love this, 3 meals a day and 8 hours of sleep :)