Red Rose (Harry Styles Fanfiction a.u)

Chapter 23

It's been two months, two months since I've seen Harry, two months since I let him go.

Every day it cuts a little deeper but Anne said that she is sorry for everything I had been through with Harry.

She said that she will organise the funeral for him, I tried putting in my word but every time I tried saying what he liked I always broke down.

The day Anne told me he was with Darcy is when he finally let go, I wish I held his hand for longer but as soon as I let go he let go.

I miss him more then when he went missing but I think it's because I know that I won't see him again. Apparently Anne found out where he lived so we were going over there today to sort through his stuff, Joshua was staying with Gemma so I wouldn't have to take him with as well it wasn't a place for a baby.

Anne picked me up and we were driving to his, sighing I leaned my head against the car " Clarry you alright ? " she asked worried but I shook my head " I don't want to let it sink in that he is actually gone " I mumbled. She nodded and kept her eyes on the road.

When we arrived I looked around shocked, this place was scary how could he have lived here. Slowly Anne grabbed my hand and walked towards the Apartment number. Standing outside the door I trembled grabbing the door handle and moving it, once the door was open I walked in and almost collapsed. There was blood, blood everywhere walking backwards I walked into Anne.

Seeing the blood put everything into perspective, he is gone. Sighing heavily I walked forwards and looked around and smiled softly when I seen pictures of Harry and I hanging on mantle pieces. Walking over to them I grabbed one that caught my attention, I was sleeping with both hands on my small round stomach. It was when I was starting my pregnancy with the twins.

Putting it into the box Anne had grabbed I started putting the other pictures in. Once they were packed I started walking towards the bedroom and looked around, everything in their reminded me of him. The wardrobe cupboard was open so all of his clothes were peering through.

Walking over I grabbed his favourite jumper that he always wore, it smelt like him. A few tears escaped but I shook my head and continued looking. Sitting on his bed I opened his draws and looked through when I found something interesting a letter.
 
Dear Clarissa, 
I don't really know why I am writing this but I think it's because I know my end is coming. Please just know that I love you with every ounce of me. I love Joshua so much and I wish I could of had more time to teach him what every father should be teaching his son. 

So I'm guessing if you've found this letter then I'm gone, but not fully I'll always be there Clarry love, Just look at our pictures but there is something I wanted you to have. 

When we first got together love I knew you were the once I wanted to Marry and have a family with but things turned for the worst and I am sorry I wasn't able to be there through everything. 

But if you look in the draw again but towards the back your find something
 
Putting the letter down without continuing it I found a little box, opening it my heart stopped it was a small elegant diamond ring.

Picking the letter up I continued,
 
I was going to Propose to you after Graduation but I didn't think we were ready so I was waiting and I wish now that I did but I want you to have the ring to show you my gratitude love for you. 

I'm sorry I can't be there to hold you through this time but I'm watching for you. 
 
love Harry Edward Styles
 
Picking up the ring from the box, I put it on my wedding finger and smiled through tears, Looking up I sighed " I hope you can hear me Harry but I do " I cried " I wanted to marry you so bad and if this is all I can have of you then I do Harry, I'll never love someone as much as you but for as long as I live my heart and soul belongs to you because I'm your Fiancé ".
 
Today is the funeral, we couldn't have it any earlier as the investigation was taking longer and they apparently needed his body.

I didn't want to look at him but apparently no one was aloud to look in the casket. I have Joshua bouncing on my leg, if only he knew what was happening but he looked so happy today.

Looking down at my hand I seen the diamond ring glittering in the small sun light.

After the ceremony everyone walked out to where they were bearing him Anne looked at me but I shook my head. She wanted me to do a speech but I couldn't it was too hard.

 She nodded and walked forward " I would like to thank everyone for coming today and remembering the Harry we once had " she sighed " He was such a bright and energetic child always loved life, But he found his life with Clarissa and I'm glad to call her family."

" He gave me beautiful Grandchildren but right now he is with his daughter and getting to know her ". Crying I slowly looked down at his casket and wiped my eyes.

Anne kept talking " He went through so much and he had so much support, we love you son " and with her last words they lowered him into the ground.

We buried him next to Darcy, side beside they could play together and finally she can have her father with her.

Walking away I picked Joshua up and held him close to me, he looked at me and smiled. His dimples popping through and his green eyes bright.

I have my Harry, he's in my son.