Red Rose (Harry Styles Fanfiction a.u)

Chapter 3

September 14th 2014

“Harry stop” I yelled at him which caused him to laugh more “Never “he said chasing me more with the bottle of water. It’s a Saturday and we were bored which caused harry to come up with the idea of a water fight, I objected but he was set in war mode. Now we are running around his backyard with water.

I hid behind a tree and huffed trying to catch my breath, but suddenly I felt the cold water run down my back. I turned around and seen Harry with a smirk “I told you never babe “. I groaned and ran over to him shoving him hard in the chest “your so mean “I yelled. He grabbed me and hugged me “It’s only a game “he whispered into my ear, l leaned back and looked up at him smiling. I leaned up and kissed him softly on the lips, enjoying the passionate times that we get alone, which is rarely.

*Current*

Remembering the small things that we did together always seem to put a smile on my face, but today was even special because I found out that Harry could possibly be alive due to detectives finding some of his belongings. It’s a big step in the investigation as the past year has brought nothing but grief to me and his family. I wish we knew where he is, but the officers won’t tell us where they found the stuff.

I don’t know if it’s because they are still searching that area or because they know I will go to that lace and search it myself. I hate myself for this, I blame myself every day and night If only I had listened. I have only had the comfort of Harry’s family which is Gemma and his mother Anne, but we rarely see Anne anymore see keeps to herself now. Which is the same thing I like doing sometimes especially on the hard days.

September 24th 2014

I was crying once again, lately I had been an emotional wreck and I don’t know why. I just think of something that has happened and I break down. I haven’t gotten my period in a month and I’m late. I’m so scared about what it could possibly mean. It was my first time with Harry last month, and we used protection. If I am I need to keep calm for mine and the baby’s sake.

September 30th 2014

I awoke this morning beside Harry but something isn’t right, I feel sick and my stomach is throbbing. I run to the toilet to find that I’m bleeding. I sighed with relief but was worried as I knew I was pregnant even though I didn’t take a test I knew I was. Harry walked towards the door and looked at me worried “Alright?” he asked, I shook my head. How was I meant to tell him that I lost our child, how was I meant to tell him when he never knew. I sat Harry on the bed and explained to him what had been happening the last couple days, he looked at me he was pale. He hugged me tightly not letting me go “I’m sorry “he cried, I never seen him so upset and it tore my heart to see him like that.

*Current*

Losing a child you never really knew about hurts like a bitch, but that’s what changed him so much. That’s why he stated drinking. He comforted me for a while and I guess he left his emotions bottled up and drinking was the only way to release himself. I wish I could go back and change everything but it’s not that easy. I lost my child and a few months later I lost the love of my life.

I’m a wreck.