ikigai |billie eilish

one.

people. i don't like them. i prefer to keep my circle small. for multiple reasons. when i had a lot of friends they hurt me or were fake. so i cut everyone off except my family and my best friend. my best friend, leo is popular but he doesn't want to be popular. he doesn't care about the people who come up to him and talk to him or when people call him "his friend" when he's never talked to them before.

but the difference between us is that i'll be mean, he won't. people have always told me i have a bad attitude but frankly i could care less.

the bell started ringing meaning it's time to go to second block. since i'm a senior and i've kept up on my grades, i have early release.

i walk out of the class so i could go to my next class. leo comes up to me and puts his arm around me. "i like your fit dude" we continue walking and i let out a small 'thank you' i was wearing baggy jeans with a white halter top and the dior nikes. my curly hair was in a bun and i had light make up on.

we walk for about 15 more seconds but we say bye when we get to his class. my class was the one next to it. it was AP calculus and it's easy for me. the teacher is okay i guess, and the work is fine but i hate this class. it's because of the other students in here. they're so annoying. i walk in and smile at the teacher who's at the door.

i take my seat and see a couple of kids who always talk walk through the door. i roll my eyes then get my book bag so i can get my notebook out because we have a test today.

the bell finally rings so the teacher tells everyone to put their things away. "if i see a phone, i'll assume your cheating. if i see you're talking to someone else, i'll assume you're cheating. if i think you're cheating i'll take you're test and you automatically get a 0 and you cannot redo it" she explains while passing out the test.

once she gave one to everyone she goes to sit at her desk. "good luck" she said then goes on her computer to do some work. i have to do good on this test. my grade is a B, no that's not bad but if i do bad on this test it'll get lower. the quarter is ending soon and my parents are always on my ass about my grades. i've never even gotten a C.

i studied for an hour last night making sure i do great on this test. i flew through the test and now i'm on the last question. i try to focus but the girl next to starts tapping her pencil in the desk repeatedly. "stop" i whisper to her and she ignores me and keeps going. i roll my eyes then try to put my focus back on my test.

it doesn't work "dude stop" i raise my voice but it's still low. she "why" she asked which caused me to furrow my eyebrows together. "because i'm trying to focus and it's annoying." i tell her getting annoyed. she starts talking but gets cut off by the teacher "give me your tests" she looks at us seriously. "why"

"because you guys were talking. you're getting a 0" i start shaking my head. "no i was telling her to stop tapping her pencil" she goes to grab my test but i pull away before she can get it. "dude i wasn't cheating"

"give it to me. now" i sigh angrily then give her my test before giving billie a dirty look. she got both of our tests and looks at them for a moment. "hm you got them all right. too bad" she kept eye contact with my while throw them both away.

"no that's fucking ridiculous. i wasn't cheating nor have i ever cheated in here so why would i now." i raise my eyebrows at her. "lower your voice. the three of us can talk after class" i roll my eyes then i pull out my book and start reading it until the end of class. i see billie glance over at me. it looked like she was going to say something but she ended up not.

the bell finally rang so i got my book bag and put it on then started making my way out of the door. "billie and eliana" we both stop and look at her. "i'm not staying. i already told you i wasn't cheating and it's bullshit because now i'm gonna get a 0 on this test" i turn back around then walk out of the classroom.

i start walking too my next class but i feel someone tap on my shoulder. i turn around then roll my eyes, annoyed. "i'm sorry" billie told me but she looked nervous. "whatever just leave me alone" i walk off to my next class but of course billie has that one with me too.

it was the end of the day and as im waking out of the building i see it's raining. of fucking course. i have to walk home which is a 15 minute walk. i try and brush it off then start making my way to my house. i see a car pull up to me and roll their window down. "want a ride" the driver asked and i notice that it's billie. "i'm good" i continue to walk but she decides to still talk to me.

"seriously? you'd rather walk in the rain then get a drive home in my sexy ass car?" she asked, shocked. i nod then pull my air pods out from my pocket. she shrugged "your loss" she rolls the window up then drives off quickly.

i make my way home then change into a very baggy t-shirt with just underwear. i'm home alone because my parents are at work. i make my way down stairs and get some taquitos to make. i don't eat school lunches so when i come home i usually make food right away.

i get some sour cream and a mountain dew then go to the couch and turn on the tv. i decided to put on the office since it's my favorite show. after about an hour i made my way upstairs and went to sleep. it was early but i stayed up late so i could study for my test last night. you know, the one i got a 0 on.