ikigai |billie eilish

twenty three.

billies pov:

"man sit yo ass down" stas demanded so i did as i was laughing. she just shook her head while smiling. i was pretending that i was gonna fight her and the security guards along with the other students started to look at us.

"you deserve to get your ass beat. you got taco bell with out me last night" i defend myself but i could tell she disagreed by the way her face looked. "so i can only eat taco bell when i'm with you" she asked and i immediately nodded my head. "obviously" i answered but she just shook her head and started eating her food.

right now we were at lunch, at school. we started talking about first period because the homework was confusing as fuck. but she changed the subject "you wanna come over later" i was taking a drink of my water so i finished doing that, then answered her. "i cant, im going to see eliana"

she sucked her teeth once she heard my reply "man i never even see you anymore" she complained "i see everyday at school" i point out but she just gave me a are u for real look. "that's not the same thing and you know it" i just shrugged at her.

"what's going on with you guys anyway" she raised her eyebrows at me but i shrugged again. "i don't know man. it's hard to tell with her, like i don't want to be with no one else and i don't want her to be with anyone else but i don't wanna tell her that" i ranted. it felt good getting this off my chest.

"well it's pretty obvious that she likes you" she told me and i could feel myself smile. "i dunno though. i really like her, she's not like any girl i've ever met" i grabbed stas' tray along with mine then got up and threw them away. as i did that i looked across the cafeteria to see eliana staring at me. once she noticed i was looking at her she looked away really quick and i could see her smile while she was listening to whatever leo was saying.

i just smiled and looked down at the ground before going back to our table.

a few minutes later, we were leaving and i felt someone attempt to jump on my back. "what the fuck" i groan then turn around to see who it was. "hi" eliana cheesed with a big smile. i narrowed my eyes at her so she gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.

"you're annoying as fuck" i shared to her which causes her to gasp. "wow, i can't believe you're being so mean to me" she put her hand on her heart so it looked like she was hurt. "better believe it" i smiled "dick" she mumbled so i stopped walking and grabbed her hand so she would stop too, grabbed her  jaw so her would turn over to face me and i gave her a big kiss.

i pulled away to see her trying to bite back a smile. before we could say anything leo and stas came up to us. "uh since when" leo pointed to us and i saw elianas eyes widen. "well you see" she trailed off, scratched the side of her head. me and her both laughed then stas started talking.

"i love your outfit eliana" the four of us looked at her outfit then eliana thanked her "thank you but it's eli" she told her but she had a confused look on her face. "but billie calls u eliana...?" she said, genuinely confused. "billies an exception" she informed her, i felt my face heat up but i ignored it. "she don't even let me call her eliana" leo complained but she just smiles widely.

"i gotta get to class, bye you ugly bitches" eliana joked with them so they walked off to class and it was just now because we go to math together. "don't worry i don't think you're ugly" she grabbed my hand but i didn't say anything, i just laid my head on her shoulder and we walked to class.

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"wassup hoe" eliana greeted me so i flicked her on her forehead. "ouch" she pouted but i just laughed at her.

"hurry yo ass up, we're going to get taco bell" i informed her so that made her start to run to my car. she was ways ahead of me now so she turned around to look at me "hurry yo ass up" she mocked so i ran up to her and i picked her up bridal style.

"okay i'm sorry, i'm sorry!" she giggled as she was in my arms. i put her down so could get in the car.

we talked about our day as i drove to taco bell. i got 10 bean burritos and eliana got two five layer burritos, we both got baja blast to drink.

we got to my house in a short amount of time, we quickly made our way inside so we could eat our food.

we both went to the couch, i sat down but she laid down but not fully. she laid down a little bit father so she could put her feet on my lap. i just chuckled after she did that. "man i remember when you wouldn't even let me touch you and now you always gotta be touchin' me" she smiled with food in her mouth so her face looked funny.

"it's not my fault you're hot" she took a sip of her baja blast after she said that. we started to talk about our project.

we've been working on it a lot this week, we're almost done. we just have a couple more things to do but we're not gonna do it today.

we finished our food a couple minutes ago and we were just on our phones but i quickly got bored. i turned my phone off then groaned. she noticed so she turned her phone off, looked at me with raised eyebrows.

"come here" i ordered her softly so she got up to come over so she could straddle my lap. she looked at me for a minute, occasionally glancing down to my lip but would go back to looking at my eyes. "kiss me already" i begged so smiled but then cupped my cheek and gave me a soft kiss.

we kept going for a moment, her hands tangling in my hair. i put my hand on her lower back then started to drag it down. "is this okay" i whisper against her lips. "yea" she said quickly so she could start kissing me again.

i grabbed her ass which caused her to let out a quiet moan in my mouth. "fuck" i breathed out, she started choking hard but it didn't hurt. she stopped once she went to my neck, she started to leave soft kisses but i gasped once she found my sweet spot so she kept her focus on there.

she started to suck harshly but i liked it. i could already feel the hickeys forming. i slapped her ass which made her breath hitch.

we did that for a couple more minutes but she pulled away which was completely okay with me. it was actually pretty surprising we just did that because we've been going pretty slow. she looked at me then dragged her thumb on my lip. i grabbed her wrist to pull her hand down "stop that" i demanded but she just smirked.

"you're so..." she trailed off then thought for a moment before finishing her sentence "i can't even describe it bro, you're like stunning" i shook my head at her "have you never looked in the mirror"

it was silent for a moment but eliana blurted something "i like you" her eyes widened once she said that. "sorry" she tried to get up but i pushed her back down on my lap. "i like you too"

her face gets red then she looks down at her lap to start playing with her fingers. she does that when she's nervous. "really" she questioned quietly after a moment. i lifted her head with my fingers "definitely" i smiled at her.

she gave me a nice kiss then put her head in the crook of my neck. "i don't wanna date right now, is that okay" she say back up and i nodded. "of course" she kissed my cheek before putting her head back in the crook of my neck again.

"take your time. i'm perfectly fine with waiting for you" i told her honestly as i felt her play with some of my hair. she just nodded, i could tell she was tired.
i was right, she ended up falling asleep about 10 minutes later.