ikigai |billie eilish

twelve.

"i'm not going" im arguing with leo about going to class. i was gonna skip history but my dumbass told leo i was gonna skip and now he's forcing me to go.

"yes you are"

"no i'm not" i huffed then crossed my arms. he went behind me so he could push me to class. i tried to move to the side but he just held me there. he's stronger then me so there wasn't anything i could do.

"leo please" i beg but he doesn't change his mind. "it can't be that bad dude"

"it is" i tell him honestly which causes him to think about it for a moment. but that doesn't matter because my teacher saw me.

"hurry up. the bell is gonna ring any second and you don't wanna be late" she wave me over so i gave leo a dirty look. 'sorry' he mouth then walked to class. it's not that i don't want to come to history because of the class.

it's because i don't wanna see billie.

it's been a week since we got into that argument but ever since then all she's been doing is ignoring me. i've tried texting her, calling her and even talking to her in class but she just ignores me.

i feel really bad.

i knew i was being mean but i didn't think she cared. "okay let's begin"

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it's near the end of history and she's about to announce everyone's partner for the project. apparently she does a big project every year that will count for half of our grade.

we're not even gonna have any class time to work on it so i hope whoever i get isnt weird.

i really hate working with partners because i don't like 'making friends' when i'm comfortable with someone i'll be goofy and shit but people overall just piss me off.

"okay so when you hear your name go to your partner"

"clara and danny"

"steph and jessica"

"ivy and jaylen"

"mary and kaylee"

"jordan and tyrone"

"eliana and billie"

holy fuck. i look over at billie then we meet eyes but she shakes her head disapprovingly. i could tell she was upset about getting paired up with me but personally i'm glad because this way we can make up and i'm with someone who i know isn't weird. for the most part.

she finished listing off the names but i wasn't paying attention to her. after she was done billie raises her hand and waited for the teacher to call on her.

"yes billie"

"i need to switch partners"

"i'm sorry but no one is aloud to switch their partners. whatever reason you have for wanting to switch, work it out"

"fucking great" she mumbled but i'm pretty sure i was the only one who heard her since i sit right next to her.

the bell starting ringing meaning it's time to go to my next class. my last one thankfully.

i got up then caught up with billie. "so should we go to your house to work on the project" i smirked all she said was a dry 'sure' then quickly walked away.

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i waited for billie by the door she usually go outs at. i was sitting there for a couple minutes but she popped up.