Blob and a Curse [discontinued]

7

*George's pov*

He's bring me back? What on earth does that mean?

That was my first thought I had when I stirred awake.

That place feels so comforting, he feels comforting... A safe place? It all sounds fishy. Am I seriously this bad that my mind is battling with itself to create myself a mind palace to feel safe in when I'm sleeping?

I have completely lost it...

But I want to go back? Can I actually go back? Why now out all any other time, why now? Why now make up a place?

A beautiful place. A beautiful ? person...

I need to awake myself up from this fever dream. I need to stay grounded in reality, no matter how luring that place is.

I opened my eyes finally, after a second of my eyes focusing, my dimly light room was shown before my eyes. Reality, my reality.

I just stare at my desk begging it to give me motivation to move, it just feels like a bunch of weight is weighing me down making it impossible to move a muscle. Something white catches my eyes, look down onto the covers that covered me and saw that stupid blob thing. But with that I felt not motivation to move but a force to get me to move of my bed.

Once out from my covers I realise how weird this is, how did the blob- when did i get into bed- not now. Obviously I got the blob back and crawled into bed. My mind is so busy I just need to focus. I need... I need to listen to music.

I reached my desk chair and sit down. After taking a somewhat of a shaky breath I open my laptop and open soundcloud.

((play chemicals acoustic by dean lewis))

I found love with the chemicals
I used to pray for a miracle, but now
I know that it's all over

I take in a deep breath and hold it.

We used to sit by the waterside
I'd kiss your cheek and say "you're mine"

I close my eyes.

But now I know it's over
And all these little things, they start to slip away, hmm
And all these little things start to fade away
And you said

"Hold me, I'm falling apart"
'Cause I'm scared and lost in the dark
And this feeling surely can not last" I hum aloud along with the song.

So I took it away, took it away
Away from you
Hmm, whoa, oh
I held your hand but you let it go
And I knew your heart had found a home
Now I know it's over
I flew it out into the sky
Tryna run from this mountain I couldn't climb
'Cause I knew I'd fall over
And all these little things, they start to slip away
And all these little things start to fade away
And you said

"Hold me, I'm falling apart,
'Cause I'm scared and lost in the dark,
and this..." I stop singing along as I slowly open my eyes to look at my screen.

So I took it away, I took it away
And we were making plans and breaking dreams
When you were next to me
It's 3AM in the back of a cab
And I am begging on my knees
Don't go, won't you stay?

There is something about my screen that is odd. I have chemicals... and my other song and another one.

I can't stand to watch you walk away from me
And you said

How the heck???

"Hold me, I'm falling apart
'Cause I'm scared and lost in the dark
And this feeling surely can not last"