THE AFTERGLOW | | vk

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I was by the fridge, collecting the ingredients needed for the soup. I heard the door shuffling. I looked back and saw Jimin all ready." hey, Hyung are you going somewhere?"I asked "yes, tae. I promised yoongi hyung to hang out with him and now I'm late cuz I slept." he smiled sheepishly. he looked at his watch and his eyes widened. " alright, tae. I'll be leaving now. eat your dinner and sleep. don't wait for me. love you." He said almost running. I chuckled at his clumsiness. 

I stood by the kitchen platform. I laid the cutting board down. I started chopping carrots to add them to the already boiling soup. Once the soup is done, I transferred it into a bowl. I took the bowl of soup to my room with a glass of water. I slowly put down on the bedside table. I slowly sat on the edge of the bed. I took a keen look at Jeongguk. he is the cutest soul alive. he sleeps with a pout and his fists tightly closed. he had his long hair sticking on his forehead. His cheeks were tinted pink. He is sound asleep. I gotta disturb his sleep now. I opened the draw from the bedside stand and took a thermometer out. I gently squished Jeongguk's cheeks together which led his mouth open in a small 'o' shape. I carefully put the thermometer in and closed his mouth back. After 2 mins when I heard the tool beep, I took it out from his mouth. it showed '39.4C'. Shoot! that's high. I gotta call the doctor. " Jeongguk, wake up. I made you some porridge. You can have that and sleep again." I said softly shaking him. he stirred around with a pout. "jeongguk, wake up" he slowly opened his eyes and looked at me for few seconds. He immediately smiled and hugged me and I hugged him back. I took the bowl of porridge after we pulled back from the hug. I gently blew on the porridge to cool it down a little and fed. I repeated the process until I fed him the last bite of the porridge. I put the bowl aside and gave him the glass of water. He took 1-2 sips of it and gave it back. 

I tucked him down in the bed again. He fell asleep in a couple of minutes. I took the empty bowl and the glass to the kitchen and placed them in the sink. I fished my phone outta my pocket and called the doctor. The doctor said he will be there here in 30 mins. 

I sat on the chair beside the desk, looking at the sleeping boy in my room. There are so many thoughts that are running in my mind right. I am bouncing my right leg on the floor while biting my nails. Why did Jeongguk have a sudden change in his behavior? Why did he start talking like a child? why does he never talk about his parents? Why do I feel like he was underweight when I lifted him up? cuz boys of his age are bulky and strong. But at the same time I am not supposed to be concerned but his parents or guardians. I came out of my thoughts when the heard the doorbell ring. I walked to the main door, opened it, moved aside, and let the doctor in. " good evening Mr.Lee." I greeted him and guided him to my room. I placed a chair by the bed so that it will be easy for him to check on jeongguk. After examining jeongguk, the doctor wrote me a prescription of medicines. " give him these tablets and syrup for 5 days and he will be fine." and gave the paper to me. " um Mr. Lee, I've gotta say something else as well. Jeongguk started wailing loudly when I told him that he has a fever. he started clinging to me. He started talking like a child and most of the words he spoke were gibberish." I explained. " since, how long have you known Jeongguk for Mr.Kim?" He questioned me " For almost 3 weeks now." I answered.

"This happened because of age regression." Mr. Lee said, "what is that, sir?" Mr.lee sighed asked me to sit down. "Littlespace is a mindset in which an adult feels they are in a state of carefree, responsibility-free safety while expressing their atypical inner-self (personality) that differs from their biological peers. It may be a developed time in which an adult relives childhood memories, scenarios, or desires that were unachievable in their adolescence. An adult in littlespace may involve another adult referred to as a caregiver, engage in activities viewed as childish, or some may even participate in adult sexual interaction during their time in littlespace. While in littlespace, the adult is usually, but not always, referred to as an adult baby, little, or middle. A standard that all people interacting and involved in the more intimate, adult scenes is that they are all of legal biological age." Mr. lee explained as I widened my eyes cuz it is too much to get in my brain."w- what?" I asked again briefly understanding. "In the simplest of ways to understand, littlespace is when a person with the unique little or regression personality expresses their personality more externally. It fluctuates as a mood, sometimes being much more apparent than other times. A little is often accompanied by another adult of almost the same age, referred to as a caregiver, who assumes the responsibility of safety during the time the other adult is within the littlespace mindset. The caregiver may be assigned a special name, such as Daddy or Mommy, to indicate their awareness over the situation and the parental type which is really rare cuz most of the time they are involved in a romantic relationship as well as parental-type care together while they are giving to the little. This caregiving is a form of romantic expression of love." He said.

 " what do they exactly do in their head space?" I inquired again. " Littles typically engage in multiple activities while in the littlespace mindset that coincides with the age they feel more connected with than their biological age during a regressive mood. Common activities that little adults engage in are coloring, watching cartoons designed for children, and partaking in games like hide and seek. Some little adults also modify, create, or own specialty clothing for littlespace time and dress up, wear adult diapers, or restyle their hair. They will be in a need of pacifiers and teeth rings. A little chooses their methods to engage in littlespace so it can vary widely and is based primarily on personality and preference versus standards or commonalities." he continued answering. " so, what is Jeongguk now? He is a adult little or just a normal little? and what exactly are adult littles?. I continued to clear all my doubts. " how was jeongguk in his big space and little space" The doctor asked me. " He is quite shy and quiet. he doesn't initiate conversations in his big space. He got really clingy in his headspace. he started crying thinking that I would leave him." I answered. " Oh Ok. Jeongguk is most likely to be a normal little because I didn't hear any sexual initiatives from his side on you. Adult littles may also allow sexual interaction from their caregiver while engaging in littlespace time. If this occurs then the little adult typically takes a submissive role, allowing the designated caregiver to dominate the scene through guidance, direction, and primary action. The little may incorporate items such as pacifiers or stuffed animals into the sexual scene for their added security and comfort. Playful, faux-punishment spankings with toys such as paddles for adults may occur along with other generalized aspects involved in the restraints & Discipline / Domination & Submission / Sadism & Masochism (BDSM) lifestyle. Though it is best to keep in mind that BDSM activity is not necessarily a core component of these intimate interactions and couples may or may not identify with the BDSM community. Regression itself is not a kink or adult interest, and the partnership itself between a caregiver and a little is not classified as BDSM. Not to forget adult littles can be really bratty sometimes." the doctor ended. " sometimes littles can be dominant in and outside of their headspace and yet again it's a very rare thing to happen cuz mostly littles are the ones who seeks comfort from their caregivers. I strongly feel that Jeongguk is not a adult little." Mr. Lee said chuckling and I smiled. " Littles don't like being yelled. They can still make a difference between good touch and bad touch and do not force the little to come out of their headspace cuz it may lead to severe headaches to many brain diseases. If the little is in his big space and is stressed about something, the caregiver must help him to slip into his headspace. That will make them feel at ease." the doctor beckoned.

"But I'm not his caregiver. why did he seek comfort from me?" I asked again. " as I said before, U cannot hire a caregiver. Littles might have experienced parental care from their nanny's but that cannot be compared to the care a caregiver gives him. It's filled with love and comfort. They can be emotionally connected to you. You said that jeongguk and you have hardly known each other for 3 weeks and it's enough time for him to seek care from you. He might be comfortable around you. He is ready to show his real self to you Cuz littles don't usually go into their headspace around strangers scared of being judged and bullied. Jeongguk  may or may not want you as his caregiver." The doctor ended and stood up, As did I. " I hope you had enough little space-savvy today." The doctor asked putting his hand on my shoulder. I chuckled and nodded. " Take good care of and don't forget to use those tablets I prescribed." he reminded me as we walked to the door. I bid him goodbye and went back to my room. I looked at the clock. it showed 11;45, almost midnight. The doctor and I had a conversation that lasted for almost 2 hours. 

I went and sat beside the bed and looked at Jeongguk. I moved his bangs away from his forehead and caressed his head. he leaned into my touch. I covered him with a blanket that he kicked away in his sleep." Honestly, I wouldn't mind being your caregiver, Jeongguk. I'll protect you from this toxic world if you let me in your world. I don't know what happened to you in your past and made you like this, but ill be your ray of sunshine in your present and future. I'll give you all you want and all you've lost. I promise to love all your flaws and never judge you. I'll never let people think that your little space is a failure. we will fight together in this. I am with you. I hope you accept me as your caregiver vow to see the world through your eyes if needed." I promised him though he couldn't hear me. I leaned down and slightly pecked his forehead, smiled at him softly, and trudged down to the living room to sleep there on the couch for the night. 

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"I hope I gave You guys enough knowledge about LITTLE SPACE / AGE REGRESSION making it as simple as possible to understand."

From now on, You'll find more of Little kook.