Breaking Clarisse ***completed***

16. confessions

So tell me what horrible things have Elijah done and be honest I'll know if your lying.

He handed me over to his men like I was yesterday's fun and they beat me. Forced me to watch a friend as they raped and beat her.

Jeremiahs mood seemed to change right in front of me.. his eyes widened and a smile took over his face like that of the Cheshire cat.

Is that what excites you. I asked curiously.

It excites me to know he broke you and now you please me. Tell me something Clarisse are you frightened of me?

Absolutely. I answered with no hesitation. And I was. I knew what he was capable of. Do you enjoy watching woman being beat and raped?

Does that bother you? I can tell you that Elijah enjoys it as well. Does he talk about the things we've done. At the lodge I mean? We all have to participate in ugly things its part of who we are as a community.

He doesn't talk about anything actually. But I've experienced his ugliness.. he has forced himself on me.

Has he now. His hands skimmed his chest running towards the crotch of his pants. Just shy of rubbing one off. Tell me about that shiner. Does he hit you often?

He doesn't. Not like that anyway. We argued about me coming here. Sometimes he likes me mis behaving he finds it challenging but when I push a command he hates that. I spoke when I wasnt suppose to. He can be very difficult. Cruel even.

I know the extent of that cruelty first hand. That excitement and charisma softened into a humble man that could actually relate.. His soft stare held a painful expression and his eyebrows furrowed in thought as if trying to shake off a bad memory. That hard exterior a mere shell to protect the softness of who he really is underneath it all.

What happened between the two of you. I've never seen so much hatred. Jealousy. Envy.

Oh I don't envy him.

Maybe he envies you. I shrugged at his comment.

This isn't about us. Your taking me off course. He pours us a drink. This is about confession. Im going to take you now. He warned.

I thought you wanted to hear me beg for it.

Oh..haha..Now thats what I am talking about. He shrieked in excitement as he stormed towards me in a full on swagger motion.

And just as fast his charisma was back and at full throttle.

Get on your knees. He mused. He pointed to his belt on his waist using his eyes. With a hint of sarcasm and a dirty smile. Wagging his eyebrows back at me tauntingly. Use those pretty hands of yours to undo my pants. Nicely. he started to bark orders Good girl Clarisse. Yes just like that. Tease me.. Use those pouty lips to play with it..

He wasn't physical or rough like Elijah but he was demanding. Using his charisma and words as foreplay. It was a surprising change actually.

You remember that night when I felt inside of you. You were so fucking wet it literally killed me to not just take you right then and there. I know your not a virgin but damn I wanted to tear that shit up. Do you like to be whipped Clarisse.

Its alright. I answered. Do you?

Haha what do you mean? He asked with a confused look like I was being rediculous.

Have you thought about letting someone do it to you. You know a reversal.

No I've never thought about that its absurd.

Why you think it wouldn't work the same for someone like you. It can't strip your power or take anything from you its just sex.

You want me to let you tie me up and beat me haha.