𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐬🪼| poetry

~13~

would have given every ounce of my soul to keep you happy and smiling

sometimes i wonder if keeping me around is for your gain

someone to sit and wait

tell you they adore you so you don't feel empty or alone,

but i can't comprehend why you can't do the same for me.

i would have never let you hurt like that.

i take you back so easily because codependency is a greed both of us can't exceed

we're needy at best, toxic at worst

and i'm starting to like it

to like the hurt

to love the pain

the pain of needing someone

that person.

i miss you, i miss you like hell

you're all i ever think about but that's just me,

always thinking.

i don't think you think about me

you say just enough for me to come back running,

and distance yourself enough for me to hurt again.

can't we all be truthful?

we all have issues, some worse than others

all i've ever wanted to do is heal you,

but how do i heal the unhealable?

how do i heal you when i can't even heal me?

and how many "i love you's" is it going to take to get through it all?

i don't know.

it's codependency.

~ 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 ~