Evelyn

Chapter 10 - I gave him my heart and he stomped on it

I don't know how long it was before I fell asleep. When James asked me did I have a boyfriend, I panicked and held my breath. That's how mature I am. I pretended to be asleep.

After what felt like forever, I felt myself relax and started drifting back to sleep. Just as I was dozing off, I felt his hand move my hair from my face and slowly caress my cheek. He moved back and left a tingling sensation on my skin.

"God you're beautiful Evelyn." He whispered and I let sleep take over.

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When I woke up the next morning my whole body ached. I was probably a giant bruise.

I slowly reached around beside me for my phone to check the time but all I was met with was a warm body. I slowly opened one eye and saw James sprawled out beside me. He looked so peaceful, I'd swear he was smiling.

Careful not to wake him I shuffled around and placed one foot on the floor when I was violently pulled back and enveloped in a hug. His strong biceps wrapped around my waist as his head nuzzled into my neck.

I flinched in pain which caused him to open his eyes.

"Jesus?! Evelyn??" He spluttered. "I'm sorry, I was half asleep. Did I hurt you?" He ripped the blankets back to survey the damage. His eyes darkened. "You're black and blue.." He trailed off.

"I'm fine." I interrupted, "really."

Even though I was wearing boxers and a shirt, I never felt more naked in my life, he made me feel so vulnerable, like he could really see me.

That's the story of my life. On the outside I looked happy and everyone seemed to like me, but I was never really myself. Only with Violet. Even Mark didn't no how unhappy I really was, all anyone saw was my mask.

And that wasn't about to change.

I tore myself from his grasp, creating a barrier between us.

"I'm going to take a shower." Putting as much distance between us as I could.

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I sat down in the shower for God knows how long and let the tears fall. I hated feeling vulnerable, I hated anyone seeing just how sad and lost I really was. I had to pull myself together and glue that mask back on. I wasn't letting anyone that close to me again.

I would not be hurt, again.

When I finally finished getting ready I felt like I was myself a little bit. Strolling into the kitchen I noticed Violet sitting at the table with a mug of coffee and was about to join her when I heard the boys arguing.

They were out on the back porch clearly not happy with each other. I couldn't see their faces but I had a feeling it was about me.

"What's going on?" I asked Violet.

"I don't know. We were just sitting here chatting when James stormed in and all hell broke loose. He grabbed him by the arm and dragged him outside. They've been like that ever since." She sighed.

Torn between going to check on them and seeing that my friend really needed someone to talk to I chose her.

"Are you okay?" I said as I carefully slipped into the seat beside her.

She just shook her head and a silent tear escaped and ran down her cheek. I reached out and put my good arm around her shoulders.

"Sshh it's okay, you can talk to me." I soothed.

"I don't even know where to start. I've done something really stupid."

"I'm sure you're exaggerating."

"Nope! I went and told Mark exactly how I feel about him and how long I've felt this way." She sobbed.

"Oh." I tightened my grip.

"I told him I loved him and he just walked away! He just left me there!"

"I'm su-"

"We had sex!" She hissed, "I gave him my heart and he stomped on it."

She was crying uncontrollably now. So without saying a word I pulled my friend up from her puddles of tears and we left.

"Let's go home."

She nodded and that's exactly what we did.