Make a choice (Y/N)

Chapter 49

Wanda's POV:
I get up early having not slept for a second as I deserve. How do I fix this? How do I fix me? I walk into the kitchen and Nat could barely look at me.
"Please talk to me or even look at me," I plead reaching for her. Nat looks up at me hesitantly.
"I'm sorry. I can fix this let me fix this please," I beg.
"I don't know if you can. I just I love you Wanda but you hurt her. You said you'd never hurt us again yet here we both are. We've lost her because you couldn't hear her out," Nat rants.
"We haven't lost her we can still fight for her...for us. Please please give me a chance. I love you with all that I am Nat. Please don't give up on me please," I cry.
"I have to get to work. I'm sorry Wanda. Can we talk about this properly later? I just I need time to think," Nat apologises heading off towards her office. What happens if I lose them both? What do I have left? Who do I have?... no one.
"Are you ok?" Clint asks. He was always around for me.
"No. I've lost absolutely everything. And I have nobody left," I admit.
"You always have me and Laura. If you need some time we've got some room at the farm," Clint offers.
"Thank you."

Nat's POV:
I finish work and I want nothing more than to run to Wanda kissing her telling her it's all ok but it wasn't. We're all hurting. I need to see Y/N I know where she is. She wants a family. So she goes to see the one person who gives her a sense of that... Morgan. I pull up outside the house knowing I shouldn't be here seeing them running around playing. I won't lose her. I'm not allowing that to happen. Y/N sees me and sends Morgan inside.
"So my brother snitched did he Romanoff?" she laughs.
"No. I just know you. And I owe you an apology. I'm not here to beg you to come home because that's not what you need right now. I'm here to apologise for not putting you first. I should've never taken this job. I knew how you felt and I still did it anyway. It was selfish. I'm just scared of getting old. I wanted to prove I still had it which is ridiculous I know. I'm sorry. I want to give you this life. I want to see you running around with our kids because you'll be an excellent mom. But if you need time then that's ok too, just know whenever you're ready. I'll be here," I apologise. Y/N smiles through the tears.
"You're not getting old Nat. You're just ageing like the finest ass wine I've ever seen. I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you. This is my fault more than anyone's. How did this become such a fucking mess?" Y/N sighs. Fuck this. I walk over to her taking her hand leading her to the bench. I pull her onto my lap.
"It's all of our faults in equal parts. We've all uncovered a lot of our emotions and traumas again. It was going to have an effect on our lives whatever happens. We're all a mess right now. I know you've worked hard on it but I don't think right now is the best time to get engaged. I think we need to work on ourselves a lot first. Now it's up to you whether you think it's better for us to do that together or apart. We've both hurt you a lot so I'll support you in whatever decision you make," I assure her.
"I don't want to lose you but I feel like I'm losing myself. I think I need time Nat to just get my head on straight. I need to be selfish and just plan my next step. The Avengers was never my dream but I understand that it's yours. I just think that we all need some space and time to make sure this is what we all want. And to improve ourselves cause quite frankly we're all a mess," I explain.
"You're leaving aren't you? Where are you planning on going? I get it. But just promise you'll come home to us and not take too long," Nat pleads.
"London. It's the one place I've always wanted to live but never have and it's a big city so I'll be able to blend in. I'll come home to you. I don't expect you to still be waiting for me. If someone great comes along who makes you feel loved and appreciated I want you to go for it. You deserve it Natalia. I will love you forever without question and I'm always just a phone call away," I promise her.
"I love you too so much. And this is the best thing for us right now. I'll drive you back to HQ so you can say goodbye to Wanda and pack," Nat offers kissing my cheek.
"Thank you."

Wanda's POV:
I hear a knock at my door and restrain myself from hugging Y/N as soon as I see her because I know this is it.
"Can I come in?" She asks tears filling her eyes. I nod.
"I'm leaving to London. I'm a mess. We all are and need some time to work on ourselves. Please don't blame yourself. This isn't your fault. It's mine for being emotionally stunted. I love you so much Wanda Maximoff. I'm going to make myself better so I can come back and be the woman you deserve to love you. I hope you'll do the same," Y/N explains.
"I love you too. You're right but I just wish I didn't have to let you go. How long until you come back?" I inquire nervously.
"I'm not sure yet. Less than a year. Listen I don't expect you to wait until I come back. I hope if you find someone who adores you and makes you feel safe that you won't hold yourself back. You deserve all the happiness in the world my love. Take care of yourself," Y/N pleads kissing me gently.
"You too."

Y/N's POV:
I pack my bags while Wanda and Nat walk me to the car. They both take my hands.
"I love you both and I'm sorry it's come to this but I think it could be the making of all of us. I love you both so much. I'll see you soon," I mumble tearily. Nat pulls me in for a goodbye kiss that's full of every emotion. As we pull away I kiss her forehead gently wiping her tears.
"I love you," Nat cries running inside. I turn to Wanda kissing her gently.
"Please come home to us. I love you too much to lose you forever," Wanda pleads.
"I will but for now I have to make a choice and for the first time in forever I choose me so when I come home I'm ready to choose you," I assure her kissing her forehead. I wave goodbye shutting the door.
"Where to Miss Stark?" Happy asks.
"JFK. Time for a new start."

Author's Note: And that my friends is the end of book 1. Book 2 is called Back for You. The first chapter is up now. Please stay with me and trust the process. It will be worth it.