Make a choice (Y/N)

Chapter 30

Y/N's POV:
I must've broken the speed limit 50 times but I didn't care she needed us and we're not there. We pull up at HQ and we both run inside to the hospital wing. Steve was outside looking stressed.
"What happened Steve?" I ask concerned.
"She was distracted she never should've been allowed to go on the mission. She left herself vulnerable and got hit over the head. They say she'll wake up in a few hours but she may have memory loss. Where were you? She needed you and you weren't here," he says angrily.
"We're here now. She hurt me. She lied to me. I deserved to take some time away. You can't make me feel shittier about this than I already do," I quip back.
"Hey Y/N. Hey Wanda. You can go in and see her it may wake her up sooner. She can probably hear you if you wanted to talk to her it could help," Bruce offers.
"Thank you Bruce," I reply. I take Wanda's hand and we walk inside. She looked so vulnerable. This was my fault. I overreacted. Tears soaking my cheeks. Wanda stood still in shock.
"Do you want to talk to her?" I ask Wanda.
"You should. She'll want to hear your voice," she mumbles finally talking. I nod.

Gently taking Nat's hand I kiss it gently.
"Hey Nat. I'm sorry I overreacted you needed me and I let you down. I cannot lose you. I need you Nat more than I want to admit more than I can put into words. You and Wanda are the best thing that could've ever happened to me. There's something I want to say to you but I need you to wake up. I want to hold you again. You need to wake up Nat cause I will lose it if you don't. I know that sounds dramatic and you'll probably say I'm whipped but I need you Nat. I need my girlfriend to wake up. Please baby," I beg tears soaking my cheeks. Wanda holds me tightly as I fall apart my tears now drenching her shirt.
"She'll wake up Y/N. She'll hear your voice and fight to get back here to us. I know it," Wanda assures me.
"Hey you're back," Tony says from behind us. I get up pinning him against the wall.
"Tell me you didn't send her on a mission. Tell me it wasn't your call Tony," I demand.
"You know I can't do that. She asked to go she wanted a distraction. I asked her if she was ready and she said yes so I took her word for it," he replies trying to take my hands off him.
"You know people used to tell me you were a heartless piece of shit but I never believed them. This couldn't be the Tony who raised me or taught me how to ride a bike and taught me everything about being an empathetic person. Yet you thought this was the right call. I don't know why I'm surprised. I can't even look at you right now. I don't want to be here anymore. As soon as Nat is ok again. I'm done. I mean it I am done with you with all of this. I can't lose someone else that I... I just can't," I say letting him go and crying again. Wanda brings me back in for a hug.
"I'm sorry," Tony mumbles as he leaves.

We sit for hours just watching and waiting. Something was playing on Wanda's mind that wasn't Nat.
"What is it Wanda? What's bothering you?" I inquire cupping her face.
"Are you really leaving?" She asks tearfully.
"No. I said it in the moment because I was angry but I could never leave you or Nat. I'm going to be around to annoy you and Nat for as long as you'll have me," I assure her.
"I'm glad to hear it," Nat mumbles opening her eyes.
"Oh my god. How do you feel? Are you ok? Do you remember who I am? Please tell me you do," I ramble relieved.
"Babe you sound like Peter and my head hurts. Of course I remember you. You're my girlfriend if you still want to be and if you forgive me," she assures me.
"Of course I do. I'm sorry I overreacted. I should've never ran. I...I really really like you Nat. Just never keep anything from me again please. I need you in my life," I plead with her.
"I won't I promise. Wanda come here," Nat says reaching out for her. She took her hand and finally breaks down.
"I'm so sorry Nat. I yelled at you and I was so angry and I would've never forgiven myself if that was the last thing I said to you. You're my girlfriend and I never should've spoken to you like that," she apologises profusely finally all her emotion coming out.
"It's ok baby I'm not going anywhere. I missed you both so much. Please never leave me again," she requests.
"Never," I agree.
"Never," Wanda adds.

I kiss Nat gently as does Wanda before Bruce comes in to run his tests. He told us she needed her rest and to come back in the morning. Wanda gets ready for bed but I'm thirsty so I go to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water.
"Can we talk?" Sara asks.
"Fine. Why did you come back?" I inquire.
"For you. Was that not obvious?" She says clearly.
"So you didn't sleep with anyone or kiss anyone while you were gone?" I question her. She hangs her head.
"Did you even think about me? Or do you just have a saviour complex that you wanted to fulfil?" I ask.
"I know what you're doing. You're painting me to be the villain so you don't feel guilty that I've come back for you because you don't want to be with me anymore," she replies.
"I don't think you're the villain but you're right I don't want to be with you. I loved you so much Sara more than I thought was possible. I didn't want to see a world without you. I went to rehab and therapy. The woman who you tried to make me hate saved me. She fixed what you broke," I explain.
"I'm sorry Y/N. I love you please tell me what I can do to fix this. I need you in my life. You were going to propose that love is still inside you somewhere," she pleads with me.
"You can have me in your life but I'm not the same person that worshipped you. I'm not in love with you anymore. And I can't make myself feel something that I don't. I'm sorry," I apologise.
"You're in love with them right? That's why you won't even try. You love them," she inquires.
"Yeah I am. I'm sorry Sara," I mumble.
"It's not your fault. By biggest regret in life is what I did to you Y/N. Will you kiss me? One last time?" She requests.
"I can't. I just couldn't do that to Nat and Wanda," I say hugging her instead.
"Goodbye Sara," I whisper walking away with my water. Wanda's stood at the door and smiles at me. I take her hand and we walk back to my room.

Climbing into bed I'm nervous how much did she hear.
"I heard a lot of it. I didn't mean to I was just coming to grab myself a glass of water," she explains.
"So you heard the part where I said... that's not how I wanted you to hear it but you've probably heard it in my head anyway," I sigh.
"Well we can pretend this never happened and when Nat's better we can all say it together," Wanda suggests.
"Thank you. I want the first time that I say it to both of you to be special and romantic. Cause I mean it completely," I assure her.
"I know you do. And I can't wait to hear it because I can't wait to say it too," she says smiling. I kiss her gently.
"You make me so happy Wanda," I declare making her blush as she snuggles into me.
"You can be big spoon tonight. I prefer being held by you," Wanda requests.
"You've got it Princess. Goodnight," I giggle wrapping my arm around her waist from behind interlinking our hands.
"Goodnight."