Make a choice (Y/N)

Chapter 12

Y/N's POV:
Waking up with both women in my arms felt amazing until I started to overthink as usual. What's the practicality really? Is there longevity? They both deserve a healthy relationship and then I'm here screwing around because I don't want to deal with my shit. I lay them both down gently and get up throw some trainers on and go outside and just start pacing. What am I doing? I'm not ready for a relationship and this could be so much fun and something decent after all this time of grieving but I don't want to hurt them.

"Hey," I hear Wanda say from behind me.
"Hey sorry I didn't mean to wake you," I apologise coming back inside and sitting down.
"You feel guilty right. You're worried about hurting us. Y/N we're all adults we all want this. Stop overthinking ok?" She pleads with me cupping my face.
"You don't get it Wanda. If I hurt you or Nat I would never forgive myself. You're the people who have finally made me remember what happiness feels like. You're the people that made me get past the stage where I wish to not wake up every morning because I can't see her. If I lose either of you, I go back to that place and I might not come out," I say tearfully she kisses me gently.
"You'll never lose me ok? First and foremost we're friends ok before anything else. You mean a lot more to me than just sex. Even if we stop all this you won't lose me and I'm pretty sure the same goes for Nat. So get out of your head and just enjoy it," she assures me smiling.
"She's right. You won't lose us. I know you feel guilty cause of what your brother said but this could be fun. Obviously we'll have to lay out some ground rules but just go with it. You never know what could happen," Nat adds.
"Ok well. I think we should start with the ground rules so that no one gets hurt. That's the last thing I want to happen," I suggest.

We sit down and work out rules to make sure we're all comfortable with the arrangement. After we finished we get showered and ready cleaning up the place. We get in the car and I ride in the back again.
"How did you know to bring it?" I ask Nat.
"What?" She smirks in the mirror.
"You know what," I say.
"Sneaky suspicion," she replies making Wanda giggle.
"It's almost as though you planned it," I mumble.
"Well not exactly. Wanda had mentioned that you found us kissing hot and I knew it was going to be awkward and you were going to bring alcohol so I made an educated guess," she explains.
"I feel used," I sulk.
"As if you didn't enjoy it and dream about it," Wanda teases me.
"I'm not sure I want it to be the three of us anymore. I just know I'm going to be bullied non stop," I joke.
"Well Wanda and I can continue without you if you want though and you can be alone in your room," Nat taunts me.
"I hate you both," I groan.
"That's not what you were saying last night," Wanda quips.
"No you just kept saying our names over and over again," Nat adds. I don't say a word just close my eyes pretending not to hear them to which they laugh.

When we get back I open the door grab my bags and head inside tired of their incessant teasing.
"How was the mission?" Tony asks.
"Boring. Thanks for not telling me there are only two beds," i snark.
"I assume the couch was comfortable," he smirks.
"I know you're desperate to know what happened but you won't be hearing it from me," I assure him walking to my room to put my bags down.

Starting to get hungry I walk into the kitchen where I see Nat and Wanda eating sandwiches. I ignore them completely making my own lunch sitting at the other end of the table.
"Really Stark?" Nat asks. I ignore her again. Her and Wanda sit either side of me oh no. Nat starts tracing her hand up and down my thigh while I try to eat my sandwich. Do not react. Just keep chewing. Wanda starts kissing my neck. Do not react. Nat moves her hand round towards my inner thigh.
"Hey guys. Do you mind if I join you for lunch?" Peter asks sitting opposite us.
"Not at all Peter please. You know what I'm going to sit round next to you. Really get to know each other," I say moving round next to him making Wanda and Nat laugh.
"That's really nice. Well I'm an orphan so live with Aunt May when I'm not here. My best friend is called Ned and my girlfriend is called MJ. She's really pretty and super smart. Tony said you like women too. What sort of women do you like?" He asks trying to make conversation. Nat keeps looking at me biting her lip and Wanda just smirks.
"That's a really good question. I like fiery red heads who have no boundaries and who still look good when they fight," I answer making Wanda and Nat blush.
"That's very specific but I'll be your wingman if you like," he offers.
"I'd like that thank you Peter. I have a question for you what did Tony say about me before I got here?" I inquire.
"He didn't say much just that you were his sister and really fast and strong," he explains finishing his sandwich.
"Good to know. Now I should go and nap I didn't get much sleep last night. It was nice talking to you Peter. If you ever want to watch a movie together, just give me a text ok?" I offer.
"Ok see you later," he says smiling.