Grace

Epilogue

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E P I L O G U E
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Alicia's POV

This is the day. The day that I don't wanna come. I always wish from the past days to stop the time, but sadly hindi iyon napakinggan and never will be.

Matapos kong maligo at magbihis ay naupo ako sa harap ng aking vanity table, para san i-blow dry ang basa kong buhok pero wala ako sa kondisyong gawin iyon kaya naman sinuklay ko ng lang ng maayos ang buhok at hinayaan itong bagsak sa aking likuran.

Tinitigan ko ang aking sarili sa salamin. I saw my eyes were red and puffy from all day... Everyday crying.

Naglagay ako ng konting powder para hindi iyon mahalata. Magdadala na lang siguro ako ng shades mamaya.

Tumayo na ako para kunin ang sling bag na nakapatong sa bedside table subalit natigilan ako ng makita ang nakaipit sa ilalim ng bag. Kinuha ko iyon ay nanghihinang napaupo sa kama.

It was Grace's letter. A nurse found it nang ayusin nya na ang room ni na pinaggamitan ni Grace. I remeber her asking me to buy her papers and a notebook. I asked her about that after ko syang mabili but she always says na malalaman ko din soon and every day since she got admitted to the hopital ay nagsusulat sya.

I always curious kung ano ang sinusulat nya that time that I wanted to peek but I controlled myself and just asked her. But same response lang ang natatanggap ko.

But right now na hawak ko na ang isang papel na sinulatan nya, and knowing that this is her farewell letter ay hindi ko kayang basahin. Ilang araw na itong naibigay but I didn't have the heart to read it.

She gave everyone a letter even her daughter but with notebook. I don't know kung anong laman noon dahil hindi ko binubuksan, I want Reign to be the first one to read it but I think it will be a long time pa.

Humugot ako ng malalim na buntong hininga bago lakas loob na binasa ang sulat.

Alicia,

Helloooo, Babe! uhm, Paano ko pa ito sisimulan? Ah! Kanina lang, tinanong mo na naman ako kung ano ang sinusulat ko and I always answered you that you'll know it soon. So, here it is! haha... I am writing you guys a letter dahil dito ko na lang masasabi ang mga bagay na gusto kong sabihin na alam kong hindi ko na masasabi in the future. I have so many thing in mind but I know that I can't write it all... but I'll try.

Naalala mo pa ba iyong promise natin na we are both going to be bridesmaids in each other's wedding? I'm sorry kung hindi ko na matutupad iyon. But I wish you all the best when you get married.  

Oh! at saka iyong promise ko na mag-staycation tayo ng isang buwan sa Maldives since we both want to go there because it looks so peaceful and it was a paradise. I'm sorry... looks like ako ang mauuna satin pumunta sa paraiso but it wasn't Maldives or any other paradise it was far away and you are not allowed to go there yet. Don't worry, go to the Maldives with Francis and have your honeymoon there hahaha. 

Anyway, on a serious note. Do all the things that we plan to do, on our bucket list. Don't stop yourself because I was gone. I want you to continue living... to move forward, because life is beautiful, cherished every moment you have. Dahil kahit anong mangyari, kahit saan ka man magpunta ay kasama mo ako as long as I am in your heart. 

I missed you already kahit na nakaupo ka lang sa couch malapit sakin holding your phone, you are probably chatting with Francis because you're smiling and blushing. I will probably miss that smile. But keep smiling okay? I know that you're crying non-stop after I die but promise me that after burying me, you'll stop crying and be happy, okay?