Imagines ✧ OGOC & Magcon | DISCONTINUED

N.M - Promise.

• Can u do an imagine with nate: y/n is really belemic and she self harms so her and nate get into an argument and he says something about y/n weight and nate and regrets it so y/n runs in the bathroom and strarted to make herself throwup but nate comes in and apologise and eveything is ok.

-- (Y/N's POV) --

It's started again, the questioning, the interrogation, the guilt. He just doesn't understand.

"Nate just leave it okay?" I sigh, he stops pacing and looks at me as if I just randomly grew two heads.

"Leave it? You want me to leave it? Y/N I can't fucking leave it. I left when there was 15, now there's 18 so what the fuck happened in the two weeks that I've been gone? You were actually doing good." He yells, tugging on his hair.

I break down and cry, pulling my knees to my chest and burying my face to cry. "Baby tell me what went wrong." His voice cracks, he's crying too. He sits down beside me and pulls me into his lap, kissing my forehead and stroking my hair.

"Your fans, they hate me. I put weight on and I look-"

"Don't you dare say it, you're fucking beautiful. Don't put yourself down baby," he cries, resting his cheek on the top of my head. "You need to put weight on, you're way too skinny, you need to eat more. This isn't healthy." He sighs.

"You don't understand Nate."

"No, I don't, but I'm trying so hard to. I want to be there for you, stop you hurting yourself and making yourself sick. I can't take it anymore, you ignore everything I say to you and put yourself down, I don't like you, you're sick-"

My heart breaks. He doesn't like me.

I push myself out of his hold and run to the bathroom, locking the door after me. I try to bring it all back up but I didn't eat earlier, there is nothing.

"Baby I didn't mean it like that I'm sorry," Nate bangs on the door heavily, crying. "Y/N let me in, I'm sorry, please just let me in," he pleads, twisting the door handle. "I do like you, I love you but I said it because you don't love yourself, you didn't let me finish!" He yells, kicking the door.

"Go away." I whisper, clutching the counter, aware that he can't hear me.

He busts the door open, breaking the lock as he does so, he peers into the toilet and sighs in relief. "I didn't eat." I bitterly chuckle, turning around to face the mirror.

He cries as he wraps his arms around me and buries his face into my neck, wetting my skin with his tears, mine fall into the sink. "Y/N, baby, I didn't mean it like that, you know I love you." He sighs, cupping the back of my head.

"Do you Nate? Do you?" I ask, trying my best to hold in the tears. "I hurt myself, I have a eating disorder, I hate how I look, how can somebody like you...love me?" I ask, shaking my head in disbelief.

-- (Nate's POV) --

It hurts to hear her degrade herself like she's nothing, she's not, she's everything I've ever wanted or needed. She's perfect.

"It doesn't matter what you do, I'll always love you, I always have and I always will. I love you so much because you make me happy, okay you have rough times but we help each other through it, I'm sticking by your side just like I promised." I sigh, holding her close to me. She's my world, I'm gonna tell her, show her, just how much I love her to make her feel better.

"Why don't you just leave me? Find somebody better-" I sigh and spin her around to cup her face and kiss her, passionately.

"Because I want you Y/N, you will be the only one I want, ever. We've been strong for too long to let go just because you can't handle yourself sometimes, I'm not leaving." I promise and rest my forehead on hers.

She scoffs. "Why do I love you? You're too good for me." She giggles, wiping her eyes and nose with the sleeve of her hoodie.

"I'm not baby, I don't care what you say, I'm a lucky guy," I chuckle, pushing her hair out of her face to kiss her forehead repeatedly. "I don't want to come home again to see another line added onto your skin alright? They'll fade at some point and we can both be proud of how well you've done and how strong you've been. You can get through this, I know you can and if you can't, I'm right beside you along the way. I promise you Y/N." I smile as she wraps her arms around my necks and pulls me close, I ravel my arm around her waist and hug her back, tightly.

-- (Y/N's POV) --

I pull away after a few minutes of standing in the bathroom, hugging each other. "Cuddles and movies?" I ask.

He grins, nodding his head. "Yeah baby, you go get changed into something comfy and I'll set everything up." He instructs, I kiss his before running upstairs to change into my sweats and one of his hoodies, smiling as his scent wraps around me, calming me.

I walk back downstairs and see him laying on the couch, snacks set out of the coffee table, the movie ready on the tv screen and a blanket on his lap. I sit down beside him and cuddle into his side, sighing in content as he covers me with the blanket.

After a few minutes of watching the movie, he holds his pinky out to me. "Promise me you'll speak to me, call me, text me, anything when you feel like hurting yourself again, please promise me that baby. I don't care what time in the morning or night it is, I don't care where I am, just please talk to me so I can help you." He sighs, kissing the top of my head.

I wrap my pinky around his and smile up at him. "I promise Nate."