How did we end up here//Luke Hemmings

Chapter 18

A/n
Before anyone reads this, This chapter contains the topic of cutting so if this is a sensitive topic to any of you, you know what is coming up. This book will also contain a lot more of the topic in the future.

Mia's Pov
"Mia, Mia wake up." Someone, lightly tapped my arm, trying to get me up. I smacked the persons hand away from me, grumbling at the lack of sleep I had had the last night. For some reason, I kept waking up breathless. No idea why though, I didn't have any dreams that I could remember that would make me do this.

As I was contemplating the reason behind my waking up abruptly, whoever it was, decided to shout my name again.
"Mum, if its you, I need to sleep. Liam, if its you, go away. Dean, if its you, get lost." I mumbled, while pulling the duvet around me more, the warmth making me smile.
"Actually, its none of them."
I jumped up from bed, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. Squinting a couple if times, it took me a while to confirm that Ashton was sitting on my bed.
"W-what are you doing here?" I asked, still rubbing my eyes.
Why did he have to come here when I was cranky and had morning breathe?
"Well, I thought i'd come over so I could ask you to get breakfast with me." He responded.
I furrowed my eyebrows, not getting how he got into the house without Liam (or Dean) killing him.
"Does that mean you don't want to go?" He asked, saddened.
"Does what mean, I never said no."
"Your face looked, I don't know, like you didn't want to go."
"No, I was just wondering how the hell you got into my house.You must be some good stalker to be able to get in."
He sighed in relief at the same time as laughing slightly.
"Actually, your brother let me in."
"Which one? I can't imagine either of them being nice enough to let you in." I asked, shock clear in my voice.
"Dean. He did do the brotherly thing and said he would snap my bones if I hurt you, but after that, he was okay."

"Okay, at least he has warmed to you."
"Yeah.So, do you want to get ready, then we can going to get something to eat."
"Yeah.Um, you can stay here and i'll go to the bathroom. Make yourself at home." I got out of my bed and made my way to the bathroom. I chose to go to the main bathroom rather than my ensuite.
What the hell did I just do? I just left Ashton in my room, on his own, while I was about to get into the shower! I am so stupid sometimes.
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Ashton's Pov
Mia had just left to go to the shower. And I was left in her bedroom! My eyes wondered around her room, taking in the posters she had on her wall, the pictures of family and the sheets of music scattered around.

I made my way to her desk, noticing one picture that stood out in front of the rest. I picked the frame up. It was of Mia as a child, with cake mixture all over her face. But the main thing that stuck out was the boy beside her. I knew it wasn't Dean or Liam, the blonde hair giving it away. It was Luke.

He had his arm around her, both of them with grins on their faces. What could of made Luke stop being like this with her? Why would he start bullying her when they were such good friends? There must've been a reason, Luke isn't the type of person that would do this for no reason. Actually how can I say that? I don't even know Luke anymore. I thought I did, but I actually don't. He was no longer the fun, caring guy I used to see him as. He was the complete opposite.

I put the frame down, the picture making me sick to my stomach. How could she still care about him now? How has she not burnt that picture? I decided to stop looking around her room, but yet again, something caught my attention. It glistened in the early morning sunshine, but not in a good way. I picked up the piece of cloth that nearly hid it from me but not well enough. I opened it up to find what I really didn't want to see. A blade accompanied by some matches. I could be wrong but I had a pretty clear idea on what these were for.

I gulped, wondering why Mia would do this to herself. A stray tear fell down my face and before I knew it, I was full on crying. How could such a beautiful, amazing girl like Mia do this to herself? I'm sure it was because of Luke. It had to be. I had never felt so much anger towards anyone like this in my whole life. And never did I think that this anger could be directed to Luke. But it was. Tears of anger, sadness and disappointment left my eyes. How could this happen? How could Mia hurt herself like this?

"Ashton, I'm ready. We can..." She chirped, but slowly trailed off.
She stopped in her tracks, noticing what I held in my hands. Her face said it all. She had cut herself before!
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Mia's Pov
I had finally finished getting ready. I didn't bother washing my hair, not wanting Ashton to have to wait too long. I made my way to my room, calling him on the way!
"Ashton, I'm ready. We can..." My mouth clenched together when I opened the door. There, Ashton stood, tears spilling from his eyes as he held my blade. I opened my mouth to try and explain but nothing came out. His eyes looked lost, as if he couldn't understand anything. He knew! There was no point in covering the truth up, the way I would do with anyone else.
"Ashton, I can..."
"You can what, Mia? Explain? Okay then, explain. Explain why you do this. Explain why you hurt yourself. Explain why you were stupid enough to cut yourself. Explain!"
Ashton's harsh words hit me to the core. Before I could say anything, i felt an overwhelming feeling of nausea. I held my head, a headache forming as well.
"Mia, are you okay." I faintly heard Ashton speak, but only faintly. I turned to my bathroom door,and ran to the toilet. Ashton had followed me in. He rubbed my back and held my hair out of my face as I was sick.

"Mia, are you okay now? Shall I go get you a glass of water?" Ashton asked,softly. I could only nod my head as I was unable to form words. He left leaving me sat, on the bathroom floor. The only sound you could hear was me crying. I don't know why I was sick. I don't think it had anything to do with a fever. I think it was the topic I was about to talk to Ashton about.

The door creaked open, Ashton walked in with a glass of water and a sad smile.
" Here." He handed me the glass, lowering down to the floor to sit with me. I sipped the water, unable to swallow to much.
"Mia, we don't need to go out now, if you don't feel up to it."
"No, its fine. You were right. I do need to explain. But I can't do it here. We meed to go somewhere else. I don't feel ill so it should be fine to go out."
"Mia, i'm really sorry for shouting earlier. I just felt so angry and I guess I didn't know how to approach this. You don't have to explain though. Its your business, not mine. All I can do is advice you not to do it again."
"No Ashton. You had every right to feel angry and hurt. The least I can do is explain. You deserve to know."
"Alright. I'm glad you trust me enough to tell me."
"Course I trust you. I'm going to brush my teeth and then we can leave."
"Okay."
"Okay."
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