Book Two: Adaptation

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•Nava•
Just getting finished making Wesley breakfast, I scoope a few spoons of ginger oatmeal in a bowl before I turn to take it to my room where she's in my bed with a bad case of morning sickness.

"Hey. Wanna try this?" I crawl in my bed next to her.

"If the crakers didn't work, what makes you think that will?" she groans obviously annoyed.

"Because I mixed ginger in it and you said that helps" I sit beside her happy I don't have morning sickness this badly. "I know you're hungry"

"Shouldn't you be in your mansion right now?" She scowls back at me.

"Shouldn't you be at Lamar's right now?" I shoot back sitting the bowel on my night stand. "And I still live here"

"If you want me to leave just say that" she pouts and I shake my head with a sigh.

"You know you're welcomed to stay here as long as you want but... what's stopping you from going back? It's obvious you want to."

Laying there for a moment she looks at me with watery eyes.

"I do want to go back but.... I don't think I can."

"Why not?"

"Because I still think about what he said when I first told him about the baby" she frowns. "The way he spoke to me... it was like we were strangers and I had offened him in the worst way"

"What did he say?"

"He accused me of trying to trap him. That the only reason I was with him at all is for his money because why else haven't I tried looking for a job like you did. Then he told me to get an abortion and that really broke me ya know because I was actually kind of excited when I found out I was pregnant. I love Lamar a lot, like I was considering starting a life with him so to hear he didn't want it broke my heart."

Feeling for her, I place my hand on her leg. "I'm so sorry, Wes. I had no idea"

"It's fine and it's great he wants it now but I took all of that to heart. In a way he had a point about me not working. I'm not sure what I was expecting living off the money my parents send me. It's not an issue to them but I should probably be making my own money like I used to then find my own place to live. And along the way figure out a way to co parent with Lamar"

"That might be the best idea" I nod. "Did he at least apologize?"

"Yeah, he said he just needed space and time to sort out his feelings. Then he cheated on me, so that really fucked up my trust in him"

"Yeah. I see why."

"And that's why I haven't gone back. I know I'm giving him mixed signals but my hormones are all over the place and I'm very confused. There's one half that wants to hate him but there's the other half that believes something could still be there. I don't know what to do" she sighs.

My lips twisted to the side, I think for a moment. "Well for starters, I think you need to find yourself in this very twisted world we've found ourselves in the middle of. Go ahead and find a job, get your own place, discover a new hobby; then along the way you'll find out if Lamar fits into that or not. Either way you'll be happy and your baby will be too"