𝙃𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙎𝙩𝙮𝙡𝙚𝙨 𝙊𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙨

𝙸 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞

Harry picks up his phone with teary eyes, letting his thumb wander over the call button.

He missed her, it was clear to anyone he spoke to he never really got over what happened.

He presses call, squeezing his eyes shut as he waits for the call to go to voicemail, "Hey! It's Y/N, I'm probably eating or I'm not you'll never know cause I didn't pick up, shit I'm running out of time, Harry! Stop I'm trying to make a voicemail! Yeah yeah I love you too, leave a message after the beep thing, byeeeee" her voice sounds through his phone speakers making Harry break down completely, letting the sadness over take him like many times before.

"Hey baby, it's me again, I don't think I can do this anymore" He starts, his voice cracking as his tears fall, "I don't think I can keep living without you Y/N, I just miss you so much" He cries, "I just-I can't" He breaks down, "It should've been me" He cries, "It should have been me, you weren't ready to go yet, you had so much in store for you and so much left to do, we had so much to do together" Harry cries down the phone.

"I left things so unfinished and so crappy, if I didn't cause that argument then you wouldn't have got into that car and you'd still be here with me, I fucked this up so badly Y/N and I need you to know that I'm sorry and that I love and that I miss you and that you mean the world to me, I just I regret it so fucking much baby, I caused that dumb fight and if I didn't you'd still be here with me, I'd still have you" He sobs.

"You weren't ready, I wasn't ready for you to leave me and I-" He sniffles, "I just fucking miss you so much" He cries, "I should've been in that car, me" He cries, "It was supposed to be me!" He sobs, "I love you so much, I can't let you go and I can't keep going for much longer Y/N, I can't live without you, it's not the same" He cries.

"I miss waking up to you every morning, I miss hearing you sing and I miss you annoying me with your stupid jokes, I miss your voice and your stories and-" He sobs, "I miss you so much baby, I miss you so fucking much, I miss everything about you, I miss having someone with me who understands me, I miss having someone to lay all of my shit on, I miss cooking with you even though you'd burn everything, I miss singing in the car with you, I miss doing face masks together, I miss painting nails and belting out Fleetwood Mac songs, I miss having your shit all over my house when I came home and getting the shock of my life when you'd jump out from somewhere" He sobs.

"I miss having you in my arms, I miss knowing you were always there for me no matter what, I miss being forced to listen to your theories"

"I miss shopping and having lunch and I miss having you question why I got all these tattoos and I miss you, I miss you so much I can't even explain it" He cries, "Waking up and knowing you're not here anymore kills me, knowing I can't roll over and have your body next to mine hurts to bad, I miss getting annoyed by your stupid music playing as you got ready for work at 5am, there's a piece of me missing without you Y/N, I love you so much and I'm never going to stop, no matter what anyone says I'm never going to be able to let you go baby" He sobs.

"I hope this message finds you well and I hope you're happy wherever you are now, I like to think you're in a better place to keep myself sane, you always said that stuff was bullshit though. I just hope you know I love you so much and I hope you wait for me, we'll meet again my love, and I look forward to it "He cries.

"I know if you could respond you'd tell me to shut up and stop crying over you and to move on but I'm not going to love, I'm never going to find someone like you and I'm going to carry you with me till the day I die. I'm never going to love someone like I love you" He cries, hanging up the phone and burying his hands into his hair, struggling to see through his tears.

....

I don't know why I did this to myself tbh.

Super short ik I'm sorry I was just depressed and wrote this ig 😭😭