𝙃𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙎𝙩𝙮𝙡𝙚𝙨 𝙊𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙨

𝙲𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚢

Harry had spotted her the second he'd walked into the restaurant, how could he not? He'd memorised every inch of her body and seeing her again did something to him.

Though she didn't see him, a thing he was beyond glad of, he'd thought about leaving but Niall wouldn't allow him to so he had no choice but to suck it up and try his best to avoid her.

Harry had dated Y/N for almost two years nearly a year and a half ago now and somehow still hasn't managed to get over her, she ended things with him because he used to work so much and that was Harry's realisation that he had to cut back on how much he was doing or else he'd lose everyone.

It hit him pretty badly and he still has his days, but as pathetic as it sounds, Harry is still hopelessly in love with her and there's absolutely nothing he's able to do about it, despite his many attempts.

"I thought you didn't want her to notice you? Staring at her like that all night is definitely going to get you noticed" Niall speaks up, looking over his menu at his best friend.

Harry sighs, "I can't believe she's here" He answers, leaning back in his seat, Niall goes to say something but stops his eyes flicking back to Y/N and Harry can't help but look himself.

And then he wishes he never did.

There's a guy with her, nobody Harry had ever seen before so it's obvious it's either a date or a new friend she's made and God Harry hopes it's the latter.

But the way he's looking at her and the way his fingertips linger on her arm suggests that his hopes are purely that.

"We can leave if you'd like? I don't want to keep you somewhere you're not comfortable" Niall says, looking at Harry sympathetically.

Niall had been Harry's biggest form of comfort or support throughout the past year and a half, besides his mum Niall was the only one Harry felt comfortable enough pouring his heart out to, it probably wasn't healthy but Niall was the best person at advice and the best friend he could ask for.

Harry can't help but let his heart break a little more when she laughs and calls him 'baby' a little too loudly, just loud enough for him to hear and Niall stands up, "Let's go" He sighs.

"No, no I don't want to ruin the night, I can't just leave when I see her. It's been nearly two years of course she's moved on, hell knows she deserves to" Harry says, making Niall sit down again.

"I shouldn't get to be upset about it, I was a shit boyfriend to her and she's happier, I can tell" He says, "That doesn't mean you have to sit here and put yourself through this H, you still wear her goddamn necklace for gods sake, just because she's over it doesn't mean you have to be. Now, let's go" Niall says, standing up again and making Harry leave the restaurant.

Harry can't help but Google Y/N later that night, just to find out how long she and this guy have been going out and who exactly he was. She deserves the best, he's always known that. But he's selfish. And he wishes he was the best.

The guy is some nepotism kid, his parents handed him a company and he's always been wealthy, Harry can't help but scoff about that. They've supposedly been going out for about seven months.

"Don't you call him baby" Harry sings softly, strumming his guitar, this is what he does when he's upset, just writes songs about her and let's his feelings out.

"We're not talkin' lately" He sings again, "Don't you call him what you used to call me."

"I, I confess, I could tell that you were at your best, I'm selfish so I'm hating it" He sings, his eyes watering ever so slightly as he strums his guitar to a tune.

"I noticed that, there's a piece of you in how I dress, take it as a compliment" He sings, his voice cracking a little as it becomes a little harder to see.

"Don't you call him baby, we're not talkin' lately, don't you call him what you used to call me" He sings, his heart breaking just a little more with each word he sings.

"I, I just miss, I just miss your accent and your friends, did you know I still talk to them?" The pain is almost unbearable, a heavy feeling in his chest, crushing him little by little.

"Does he take you walkin' 'round his parents' gallery?" He sings, anger tinting his voice.

"Don't you call him baby, we're not talkin' lately, don't you call him what you used to call me" He sings again, strumming a little more vigorously as tears fall from his eyes and he struggles to push the words from his mouth.

"Don't you call him baby, we're not talkin' lately, don't you call him what you used to call me" Harry says, it sounds like a beg, he knows it does, but in a way it is. Why did she have to move on? Why can't she still love him like he loves her? He'd do better. He'd do so much better if he could go back and know that this is what would happen if he didn't get his shit together.

"Ahhh" He screams, his eyes shutting.

"Ahhhhhhh" He screams even louder, stopping his guitar and just screaming, hoping it'd release just a little bit of his hurt.

"Ahhhhhhhhh" He yells, tears streaming down his face as he lays on his back, bringing his fists to his eyes.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh" He shouts again, his neighbours probably think he's hurt, and he is, just not in the way they'd suspect.

It's probably pathetic, they've been broken up for such a long time, but Harry can't get over her. It's impossible. He doesn't think he'll ever love someone as much as he loves Y/N and maybe it's dumb. Maybe he sounds like a moron and a loser but he doesn't care. He just wishes he could hold her one last time. Wishes he could take her in his arms and never let her go. Hold onto her for dear life. And just fight for her. Not with her. For her. To keep her in his arms and just love her. He just wishes he didn't fuck it up.

But she's gone. And she's not coming back. She's moved on and he's her past. She's let him go. And he's going to have to try to do the same. Even if it's the hardest thing he'll ever do.

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I've been told by multiple people to do a series of oneshots based of each of Harry's songs? Thought I'd start with a sad one and see what you guys think? (Specifically Cherry because it's one of my fav songs atm) Would you like to see it or no?

Anywaysss, incase any of you aren't aware, I'm going to a Harry show! And I've got an insta group chat I'm going to call during the show for a bit and if you want to be added just lemme know your Instagram and I'll add you!

Also, I'd like to say Thank you so much from the very bottom of my heart for all the love on these! I never thought that anyone would even wanna read them and it means the world to me that so many people enjoy them, I love you all so much and just thank you so much for liking these and reading them and voting for them and commenting on them! Especially commenting tbh because I'm such a loser and I love talking to everyone in the comments and seeing how they feel about my writing and getting what I'm saying in these in a way? And wanting to comment about it? IDK I'm bad at explaining things but I'm just so so so grateful for every single one of you that take time out of your day to come on here and read my stuff and engage with me about my writing, it literally means more than I'll ever be able to explain. I love you all so so much <3 THANK YOU!!!!!!

I hope you enjoyed this one, I love you all dearly - Jess x <3