Help Me To Heal

Budge over

Bucky grabbed his Pizza and sunk on to the couch next to Lexie, he sighed resting his forehead on her shoulder "therapy and Sam in one day, what fresh hell is this?"

"You love him really Buck" Lexie teased

He lifted his head and looked at her seriously "Absolutely not"

She giggled and took a bite of her pizza "so how was therapy?"

"It was ok" he shrugged "I told her about Steve.. and about me staying with you" he chewed on his pizza nervously, watching her out of the corner of his eye

"Oh.. I knew you'd tell her about Steve, but why me?"

Bucky chewed on his lip "erm.. Well she asked me a out my nightmares and when I told her my nightmares had stopped, she asked why I thought that was and I told her it's because I'm staying with you"

"Your nightmares have stopped?" She asked, almost a whisper. Lily knew Bucky suffered terribly from nightmares, he had explained it to her when they agreed that he would stay there. He had warned her never to try and wake him because he didn't know how he would react to that and he didn't want to hurt her.

"Well the ones when I'm asleep yeah, I'm still suffering from the living nightmare that is Sam" he laughed trying to break the serious mood "she um.. she thinks it might be good if you came with me next week"

"Me? To therapy? Why?"

"She said something about us talking about 'the consequences of Steve leaving and our subsequent relationship' I don't know what that even means to be honest. It's stupid, she's crazy. Forget I said anything"

They ate in silence for a while, Bucky mentally scolding himself. Nicely done Bucky, she's going to think you're a complete disaster. You've only really gotten close with her in the last week and you're already trying to take her to couples therapy. Idiot. Say something, anything. Break the silence before she asks you to leave and go back to your shitty apartment.

"So what movie are you thinking for tonight doll?"

"I'll do it"

"What's that about?" He asked innocently before taking a drink of his beer

Lexie chuckled softly "no Buck, I meant I'll do it, I'll go to therapy with you.."

"Really?"

"Yeah really. I think it could be good for us to talk about Steve together, we've not really spoke about it since we're both prone to the old 'avoid it and hope it goes away' technique of dealing with emotions"

"It's affective" Bucky shrugged

"I'm not sure what she means by 'our subsequent relationship' though, do you? I thought we were OK, we're friends right? Have I done something wrong? Have I read this wrong? I'm.. I'm sorry" tears started to pour down her cheeks and drip on to her lap as she stared down at her hands

"Chip, of course we're friends. You've done nothing wrong, where is all this coming from?" He tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and wiped away a tear with his thumb "talk to me"

"Don't mind me, I'm just being stupid. Why don't you see if there's any movies that you fancy watching while I go and sort myself out" she smiled wearily at him as she set her pizza down on the coffee table and handed him the TV remote

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I think I'm just having an off day, since this time last week.. Well.. you know.." she trailed off as she stared at the photo of her and Steve she hadn't had the heart to take down off the wall yet.