Secrets (Mattheo Riddle x Reader)

Awake

Then next morning I was awoken extra early.
"Hey. Y/n?" I heard someone whisper. I guessed it was Pansy, trying to wake me up.
"Hey. Wake up." She put her hand on my shoulder and shakes me carefully.
My eyes fluttered open. I looked at the clock and scoffed.
"It's4:30 am. What the hell do you want Pansy?" I groaned into my pillow.
"Not Pansy." The voice said, becoming more recognisable as I gained my consciousness.
"I wanna talk to you." Mattheo said, sitting on my bed. I grumbled as a response.
"Y/n?" He asked, making sure I was still with him.
Nothing...
"N/n?"       (Nick name)
Nothing.
"Love?"
I shuffled a little, he knew I loved being called that.
"Babe?"
I think my heart skipped a beat. And I looked at him.
"What was that?" I smirked, sitting up.
He chuckled.
"I wanna talk to you." He repeated.
I sighed. "At4:30?"
"Yeah I couldn't sleep." He told me. I frowned at him. I moved a little over to the side of the bed, and held the blanket up. Waiting for him to get in. He grinned, and slithered in next to me.
We lay, side by side. Then I shuffled closer to him, and he wrapped his arms around me, and pull me into him. He was so warm. He gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Night babe." I quoted him from before.
"Night love." He said.
Soon enough, his breathing slowed, and he slept, as I watched. I loved how peaceful he was when he slept, and I loved how somehow his lips curled up the tiniest bit, and I loved how warm he was, and how he likes to cuddle, and when he plays with my hair, or hugs me, and especially when he kisses me. Actually I think I love him.
As soon as I realised what I just thought, I was shocked. Love, wasn't an easy subject for either of us, and I couldn't think something like that so soon. Maybe I was just tired, and that was making me emotional or something. I sighed, and closed my eyes ready to go to sleep, when Mattheo shot up in bed and cried out. I sat up next to him, in shock. He kept yelling. I put my arms around him, at first he was stiff, and then he loosened into my hug.
"Hey. Hey. It's me. Just me. Ok?" I whispered to him, leaning back and holding his face so he would look at me. He calmed down. I pulled him back into the hug and rocked him gently.
"He was gonna kill- and there was Tom- and you got kil- and I couldn't sto-" he rambled, so scared he couldn't finish a sentence.
"I know. I know." I said. He buried his head into me, trembling, his breathing shaking. I shushed him softly while giving him a kiss on his head. His arms slipped around me, and he squeezed me tightly.
We lay back down, but he didn't sleep after that. We didn't let go of one another either.
I felt horrible, seeing him this way. I wished desperately that I could help. It brought tears to my eyes, seeing him so scarred.
After what felt like years, my eyelids grew heavy and I drifted off.
The next morning I awoke, to see Mattheo watching me happily.
"Were you just watching me sleep?" I asked.
"Maybe."
"Um... that's really creepy." We laughed.
He brushed a strand of my hair, so he could see my eyes clearly.
"God you're beautiful." He mumbled.
I laughed again.
"I'm serious!" He said.
"Yeah..." I said, unconvincingly.
He pressed his lips into mine, after a few glorious seconds, pulled away.
"That's how pretty I think you are." He said.
"Wow I'm gorgeous." I joked.
"Yes you are." He said, before repeating the kiss.
Suddenly Blaise walked in. Both of us stood in a flash, but it was too late. He had already seen us.
He stared at us.
"Hey bro, whatcha doin here?" I asked, very non-casually.
"I was just... uh... getting Pansy's stuff for her." He stuttered over his words.
"Cool. Cool. Cool." I muttered.
There was an awkward silence.
"Anyway. Got it. Bye." He said, showing us Pansy's book, and making his way to the door.
"WAIT!" Mattheo stopped him.
"You can't tell anyone about this, man." I said.
"Especially not Pansy." I added. He sighed and turned back to us.
"Fine. But may I ask why?"
"Uhhhh..." Me and Mattheo looked at one another. Truth was, we don't actually know why we were keeping our relationship a secret anymore. Blaise and Pansy were fine, the friend group was back together, there was no need to hide it anymore.
"I just want them to hear it from us." I said.
"Sure... can I go now?" Blaise asked. We nodded and he left quickly.
Mattheo and I got dressed in our own dorms, and then he came back.
"I didn't get to thank you for last night." He made an excuse, to come see me.
"Don't thank me." I laughed, as he struggled to tie his tie. I watched as he gave up, and left it wonkily. Frustrated, I walked over to him, and did it myself.
"Four years, and you still can't use a tie?" I teased.
"Shut up." He said embarrassed. I giggled at his defensiveness.
"There." I said, stepping back.
"Thanks babe." He said.
"Anytime, love." I replied.
We went to the boy's dorm to pick up the others, including pans who spent the night with Blaise. Draco looked relieved to see us walk through the doors for once.
"Oh thank god ." He sighed.
"Aw. You miss us?" I asked.
"Hah! No. I just don't want to spend another second with the love birds over there. Speaking of..." Draco trailed off. "Where'd you go, man?" He asked Mattheo.
"Uh..." mattheo stalled, but was cut off by Blaise.
"He told me that he went off for a stroll, and then a shower." He lied, keeping our cover for us. I smiled at him.