Promises

Chapter 19

-IVORY

As Remis dad invites me in, I see His face. He looks like he had just been crying but he looks happy in the moment. But seeing him reminded me about why I'm mad. It made me see it all again. My hatred for him.

I know I can't stay away from him forever. He is the love of my life, the only person I can ever imagine loving ever again.

"Uh, hey Ivory want to go up to my room or something?" Remi asks me.

"Yeah sure." Maybe he has a better explanation now.

"Or actually me room is kind of a mess right now... Garden?" he realizes,

We walk into the back garden together and he pulls a seat out for me before sitting down in his own chair. Still the same old gentleman I've always loved. But the anger is getting stronger I can't handle this right now.

"Maybe you should talk to your mom now, you can talk to me whenever, you see me all the time, but u haven't seen your mom in over a year." I make up an excuse to leave. I go towards the front door without a proper goodbye. Was that a good idea?

I got home and I pulled out my journal. I had to write down my feelings otherwise I will never get over it and I will explode with anger.

Dear Diary,

It's been a while since I wrote in this. To be honest up until yesterday everything was going well. I had finally gotten with the boy of my dreams. The guy Ive been obsessed with since the start of school. My grades have been great and me and my mom had been getting along.

A few weeks ago, something had happened to me. Something I blamed myself for, even though it really wasn't my fault. My mom got a new boyfriend and he wasn't who he seemed to be, I never liked him though. But getting right to the chase, he raped me. I was too embarrassed to tell anyone but Jade. I needed to get it out of me and I knew Jade would knock some sense into me.

Although it took me long to report I did it. A few days ago, actually but I'm slowly regretting it now.

Reporting a rape suspect is more stress than it may seem. Getting evidence is the hardest thing ever. Saying as my mom lied at first, making her an unreliable source and me being the only person there other than the rapist himself. It's his words against mine.

This is where the trouble comes in. Remi (the guy I love) is my strongest alibi alongside Jade. I had asked them both to come to the case with me to help me out. But only one of them showed up. Jade. Because of this my chances had been really low.

My mom was obviously on my side now but at first, she was with Gary (my rapist) this made her lie to the police at first, saying she didn't hear anything. She then changed her mind and decided to tell them the truth, but they didn't believe it. This gave Gary loads of brownie point. On top of this one of my team didn't come and the other just knows the story. Because of this I lost. We are now running low on money as we spent so much for a lawyer and I got fines with falsely reporting a crime. EVEN THOUGH IT WASNT FALSE.

When I saw Remi outside the courthouse that day, I couldn't help but be mad. He didn't show, and he could have been the key to me winning. But of course, he "slept through his alarm." Yeah right.

I went to see him today, I missed him like crazy. Seeing him again though, I couldn't handle it right now. So, I stormed out and now I'm writing this but writing this is making me realize that maybe he actually did sleep through it.

He begged on his knees for me to forgive him. He told me he wouldn't do it again and he's never cared this much for anyone else. And I could see the sorrow on his face. But also, I saw how happy he was to see me. I am still mad but I think with a bit of talking through I could make it work.