Promises

Chapter 21

-IVORY

I look him in the eyes. I don't know what to say. I'm still angry at him, but seeing him standing in front of me, hugging distance, I can't resist him.

I lean in for a hug.

"We good."

He hugs me tight. His breath on my neck. I close my eyes and enjoy the moment. For a moment I forgot I was ever mad at him.

I pull myself back out of the hug. I look at his face. His smile has always been so beautiful. His teeth slightly showing. His cupids bow is sharp and his lift are plump. I subconsciously lean in for a kiss.

"We really doing this right now?" he mumbles, his lips still touching mine.

I pull him in closer. I put my hand behind his neck, my fingers almost digging into his skin. I've been craving this feeling since we started arguing.

We stay like this for what felt like forever but it wasn't enough. I needed to make up for the time we lost.

"I miss you so damn much," I whisper in his ear.

I tickle him on his stomach. He starts giggling. I start smiling uncontrollably. Laughing until my stomach hurts and I can barely breath anymore.

"Good thing we are in the bathroom I think I'm about to piss myself," I try to say over my endless laughing.

We continue messing around.

"Can you two fucking hurry up I want to take a piss,"

"Fuck off," we say simultaneously.

We go silent. They don't leave. The shadow of their body is still visible from under the stall door. I silently go in for a peck. Remi pushes me against the wall.

"Come here silly," he beamed leaning in for another kiss.

We hear the bathroom door slam shut.

"You scared them away,"

"I thought they would enjoy my show," Remi sulked.

"Shut up," I laugh at him.

We continue on in the bathroom for as long as I can remember. Next thing I know the school day is over. Did we really spend 4 periods and all of break in there? We get out of the bathroom.

"My mom is going to wonder why I missed school again."

He looks at me with a grimacing look.

"I don't know what you could say to be honest,"

"Oh yeah sorry mom I was just making out with Remi in the school bathroom don't worry," I say sarcastically.

"Oh, that's great, say that, say that."

We walk out of the school hand in hand. The girls giving us dirty looks once again. Our friends see us from a distance. Jade waves at me.

We run to them, him pulling me forward, me struggling to keep a grip on his hand.

"So, you sorted it out?"

"Meh, I still hate him," I joke, sticking the middle finger up at Remi.

"Yeah, fuck you too hoe," he replies.

We all walk home as a group, saying bye to each other as we get to our houses. Me and Remi the last ones to separate.

"I might throw a party this weekend want to come?"

"Sure, why not?"

-REMI

I didn't have a party planned. I have no idea why I even said that.

"Hey Ivory want to come over this weekend we can chill and watch a movie maybe?"

"Hey, want to chill out on the canal bridge if your free?"

Why am I so stupid? Now I have to plan a whole party.

I call Joshua.

"Hey dude, you got to help me out. Me and Ivory made up today but I'm still a bit nervous around her, I invited her to a non-existent party, you got to help me make it exist."

"On exam week?" he questions.

Fuck I didn't even think about that.

"Uh... Yeah, celebrate the weekend before the tests you know?" I hesitate.

"Sure dude." He hangs up. I receive a message from him.

A board with multiple party themes readily planned out. He really does take party planning seriously. It's all he really cares about. Joshua always plans the sickest parties. Everyone always comes to his parties. Everyone extremely drunk and doped up by the end, the party is sick even once everyone is half dead on the floor.

I hear a knock on the door. I get excited, but it's just Joshua.

"Bro, we got a problem," he tells me.

I look at him confused.

"What?"

"The twins are having a party Saturday."

"And? You throw the sickest parties, everyone will just come to ours and ignore theirs?"

"Oh yeah, I forgot I'm the best," he smirks.

"No, you didn't, you just wanted to brag,"

He looks away scratching his neck, knowing I'm right.

We go up to my room, planning this party till every detail is decided. Booze and drugs planned, décor planned, guests planned.

Time to just actually throw it. I don't know if I'm ready for a party yet. Joshua leaves and I dig my head into my pillow.

I try hold on to the last bit of sanity left inside me. I grab my hair to keep my hands from grabbing the blade from across the room.

"Why the fuck am I like this, I have everything I want."

I think of Ivory, how she makes me happy, but then I think of how I could lose her, how I've messed up once, and could mess up again.

I can't hold back anymore. I grab the blade. Its slightly touching against my skin now. The cold on my wrist is refreshing, and the blood trickling out of the cut is satisfying. Tears drip down my cheek, the drop causing a darker spot on my grey shirt.

I think about what I've just done. I want to say I regret it. But that would be a lie. Infact I'm tempted to do it again and again, and there's nothing stopping me from doing so. Nothing but the feeling of disappointing Ivory.

I put the blade down. I go clean up and splash my face with cold water. I look at my phone to see 6 missed calls from her and 27 messages.

I call her.

"I'm sorry I missed your calls, can't talk right now, I'll text you in a second," I tremble. I don't want her to see me like this. I want to be happy for her. I can't bring her down.

I gather myself again, wait for my breathing to calm. I pick up my phone, ready to press the call button on my phone, but she beats me to it. Her call shows up.

"Remi, what is going on, why haven't you been answering me, talk to me please," she begged.

I sit in silence staring at my screen.

Where do I even start.