Dare to dream [Book 1]

Chapter 18 - I want her

Shayne and I got back quite late from lunch and I felt a little guilty, but Rachel assured me it was ok as he had already asked her.  It was really nice to have some alone time with Shayne, I find him so easy to talk to and I really like him.  He's really sweet, I find it hard to take my eyes off him when he is around.  And now that he's not with me, I can't stop thinking about him, I'm so distracted since we got back and I think Rachel can sense it.  I can't wait to get out of here today because I think I need a cold shower, I'm finding it really hard to concentrate.  

"How was lunch" Rachel asked me as we headed to the soundroom for my session.

"It was lovely, thankyou so much for letting me have the extra time" as I hug her

"you're welcome, I thought you both needed some time alone, it's so obvious  you like each other"

"He's so sweet Rach, I really do like him" I gush, "but what if I stuff it up", biting my lip

"You couldn't stuff it up if you tried Pia, I've not seen him like this, so trust me when I say he really likes you"  she says

"I hope so Rach because I can't stop thinking about him, it's so distracting", pulling a face at her and we both laugh.

Rachel and I start my vocal session and she starts off by showing me some her breathing and warmup exercises to help with my audition.   It felt weird to do them at first but once I started singing afterwards, I can see why she uses them.  I feel so much more relaxed and it feels alot easier to sing in my higher register.   

I know Rachel is just as excited as Alicia is that I'm going to audition, however I'm still feeling nervous about it all as I've never done anything like this before.  It's been different in the past when I've performed with Alicia as I've just come in as a 'special guest' for the evening, so there was audition.  

This is a different story, it's serious now and it's for real because it's for a tour production.  I'm a little scared and I have no idea what to expect.  I told Shayne a little bit about the audition at lunch and he's also really excited for me.  I don't know anyone else who is trying out so I plan to just go on my own, sing my heart out and I'lll leave the rest up to fate.   I can't do much more than that.  I can't help but be a bundle of nerves because I really want to do well.

Until I'm offered something and I know for sure I'm in the production, then I'll get excited.  I want it so badly and I know Rhys would've wanted me to do this.  I've thought about it so long and now it's time to do something about it, so I'm going for it.

I'm so grafeful Rachel took the time to help me as she offered me some really good tips and I'm feeling a little more confident about my audition now but still nervious.  We have become quite good friends in the last few months and I think it would be amazing if I got to go on tour with her.  I've never had any singing lessons and Rachel says I'm a natural talent, but she's offered to show me lots of tips and tricks which will help my voice develop even more.  

After our session, I'm starting to feel tired as I think all the excitement from lunch with Shayne has caught up with me.  It's been a big day, so I head up to my office and ponder taking some things home with me to work on later.  Just knowing that Shayne is still here somewhere is distracting as I wonder when I will see him next.  He seems to appear when I least expect it, not that I mind as I can't stop thinking about him.   I really think I'm going to take that cold shower when I get home and settle in for the night.  

I head up to my office and start gathering up my things from my desk to take with me as Miles suddenly appears in my doorway and almost startles me.

 "Hey, where have you been hiding" I question him

"I was down in the vinyl room" he chrips back at me