Dare to dream [Book 1]

Chapter 29 ~ Where do we go from here

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 ~ Shayne ~

To an outsider anyone would think they are a couple, because they're so close and I'll admit I'm a little jealous and I wish it was me with her right now.  I watch Pia dance with Miles, they are both laughing like they don't have a create in the world and I can't help but wince as I want her back so badly.  

I snuck in here tonight as I overheard Rachel on the phone earlier in the week talking with Miles about his show and after everything thats happened, I had a good feeling I might find her here...I was right.

They have no idea that I'm here because I've been hiding on one of the balconies overhead in the shadows watching.  I need to see she's ok, she looks so pate and I can see she's lost weight and it hurts that she won't talk to me.  I know she's been avoiding me as I've not seen her at work and I've been wanting the opportunity to talk to her alone.  I know know if I'll get the opportunity now and my hopes are fading.

I talk to Miles about everything and Jarrod confronted me at work the next day, I've told them about Selena and her game and I'm relieved they both believe me.  But I still got a hard time about it and I guess I dserve it as I really shouldn't have trusted her.  I'm so stupid and I didn't think but how was I supposed to know she was going to grab me and kiss me.  

I kow realise that Selena had planned it all along because she knew Pia was in the club and timed it all perfectly.  Now that Pia knows it was Selena that I had dinner with and after witnessing everything it's just made it all worse.  I don't think she received the message I sent her and I'm pretty sure it's the reason why she won't take my calls.  

I didn't tell Miles that I was at his show or that I saw him with Pia last night.  I know he will think I'm stalking her, but I just needed to see she is ok.  And if anyone can perusade Pia that would be Miles as he wouldn't want her sitting around at home alone.

I purchased two tickets as I was going to surprise her and take her myself.  I remember her telling me how keen she was to go to and watch his show.  I'm glad that she got that opportunity as I don't want to hold her back or stop her from doing the things she loves.  I just feel sad that it wasn't me who got the opportunity to take her and for me to be the one dancing with her...holding her...I miss her so much.

I've had a few moments at work and even spoke to Rachel about things as she cold see I was clearly upset as she caught me off guard in the kitchen yesterday.  Rachel said she would try to help make Pia understand and Miles has also said he will try talking to her when the moment is right.  

But I'm not even sure when that will be, because if I was her I probably wouldn't trust me either.  I'm kicking myself now as I should've just been honest with her from the beginning, I should've told her Selena was in town and walk to talk.  I thought I could sort it out myself over a couple of days and it would be done.  But I stuff up and if I had just told her the truth then none of this would have happened. Damn it.

God I miss her so much and I just want to hold her in my arms, kiss her and never let her go.  When I'm with her everything just seems right in the world but now thats all changes and it's been turned upside down....

~ Pia ~

This morning I received an email from Rachel asking me to call her as she said Jarrod had given her the landline number for here but she wasn't sure I would pick up.  So I called her straightaway as I knew she would be in her office and hopefully no one else was around or busy with appointments.

She picked up on the first ring and I could hear the emotion in her voice and that she was a little upset for me too as she kept apologizing and saying that she felt bad.  I tried to hold it in but hearing her upset just set me off and I couldn't help but get teary as she explained everything.