BTS Caretaker ( BTS x OC)

Chapter 149: Tizzy III

"Yoongi..." her eyes welled up with tears and it began to seep down her cheeks. Seeing her crying weakened Yoongi, he held back the urge to pull the broken girl into his arms. He had to think rationally before making any rash move.

"Let's not do this, I told you this will turn out bad. Just head back Seul-ah, you are tired, we both are. If we continue, it will bring more harm than good"

"All I want is a closure, you are my boyfriend but why do I feel like you are not acting like one. " she wiped her tears with the back of her hand.

"I am not acting like your boyfriend? So, what do you expect me to do? Announce to the whole world that you are my fucking girlfriend or send you flowers every day to make u feel worth again? Is that what worries you? If that makes you feel better, I will do it" he snapped.

As soon as the words come out of his mouth, she felt a stab in her heart.

"Will it make you feel better if we end this?"

"What?" clearly taken aback by Seul response.

"It seems like I am burdening you with my issues, we may as well stop seeing each other Yoongi. You don't deserve this"

"Fuck Seul no, that is not what I mean okay. Look I have told you, this is not the perfect time to talk but you keep on pushing it"

Seul closed her eyes tight, letting the tears ruining her makeup "Because I am not okay Yoongi! I am not okay with this. I am scared of losing you and I can't stop thinking what I could possibly do to make you act this way. I was waiting for the perfect time to talk to you but apparently none of your time is spared for me. You could barely look at me without feeling ashamed and disgusted, don't you? If it is not today then, when?"

"Stop saying that I am disgusted with you because I don't! Don't you get it we are both not in our right mind, we can't do this without getting on each other nerve. I don't want you to worry about this because there is nothing wrong with you but me!" he heaved a loud sigh, rubbing the back of his head in anger.

"What could you possibly do that makes you assume you are the cause to this mess?"

"Don't push it" he paused knowing his next words might irrevocably affect his relationship.

"I am as frustrated as you Min Yoongi, I am also confused. If you can't open up to me then how are we going to solve this? Stop denying my existence, and man up for once!"

"I said don't fucking push it Ji Seul. Can you just fucking leave it as it is and stop being a whiny baby! I really can't stand your nonsense right now!" he raised his voice causing the latter to flinch in sheer surprised.

He said it.

He freaking said it.

Shit. Yoongi was not amused with himself.

Seul faltered, a fearful look clouding her face.

It just took that one mistake for Yoongi to ruin everything and worse breaking her heart. She froze in her stance, averting her gaze from his as she chewed her lower lips, muffling her sobs.

Yoongi gulped in great drafts of air, mentally cursing his inability to hold back his anger. He screwed this up even though he had no intention to hurt the innocent girl.

"Seul-ie" he reached out to pull her into a hug, however she was quick to dodge the touch and took a step backwards creating a large gap between them.

He inhaled sharply, understanding the pain that he has caused.

Clutching onto the hem of her dress, she looked away "I..am sorry..." the word coming from her mouth shattered his heart into million pieces. She was about to leave, Yoongi was quick enough to stop her. He held onto her wrist tight, begging her in silence not to leave and to give him chances.

"L..ets do this when we are both ready" her shoulder shook uncontrollably as Seul had no control over emotions at the moment. Being with Yoongi in the room suffocated her, therefore using the last ounce of her strength, she pulled away leaving her lover behind.

Seul's last words rang in his ears making him regretted his decision to let her go.

It isn't you baby girl, it is me. I am an incompetent boyfriend, I failed to protect that one person that I love. I am disgusted by myself for being so incompetent as a man. I am sorry baby. Yoongi slumped himself on the couch accompanied with his long and deep sigh.

He wanted to run after and fixed everything.

But, he was afraid to look at her without feeling guilty.

He broke her, he's officially an asshole of the year.