BTS Caretaker ( BTS x OC)

Chapter 77: Bedevil II

Amused, he studied Seul closely "Why are you so jumpy Seul?" he bit his lower lips with a hidden smile. It made him feel superior to know he's the reason why she had been acting this way. There was a hope in this relationship after all.

He took a small sip from his drink and expelled a long endearing sigh. It caught Seul's attention right away and she gathered her courage to say something "Are... you alright? Something is bothering you?" her soft voice was oh-so-soothing in his ears.

"Yes. It is you who has been bothering me" Yoongi played with the sheets beneath him.

"Yoongs..I have no idea what you are about to say but I think I kinda know where this conversation will lead us" she set the drink down on the other side and collected her knees to her chest. Seul was about to prepare her heart just in case this conversation might be the cause of her misery or happiness, whichever it was, Seul had to face it.

Yoongi smiled meekly, "Will you listen to me until I am done?" his voice was soft and husky travel through the ice-cold air. He seemed to be steeling so Seul nodded in assurance. She didn't want him to think she's being selfless, so she responded quickly "I want to hear all of it. Tell me" she whispered under her calm breathing.

"I apologize for acting rashly around you. I feel deeply bad. I didn't mean to disrespect you as a woman. In fact, I do see you as a woman. I want to keep you safe and not to be the cause of your misery. It is crazy how it is hard for me to finally be truthful to myself. I am not good with words. I have no idea how to act around you, to treat you like the way you deserve. I always thought giving into my feelings will weaken me. I end up treating you like some kind of pushover" Seul listened to every word attentively. Sometimes she would be in daze trying to digest Yoongi's real intention and sincerity.

He took a long pause before continue " There are a lot of people walking around feeling not the slightest bit of guilty for how they treat others. I thought if I acted the same way it would free me from the problem occur surround me. Some people convinced themselves that they are not responsible for someone else's feelings. All these years, I learned how to endure it and pretend everything is okay when it is not. I thought when it came to myself, I only had to be selfish. I never consider your feelings and let my emotion cloud my judgement" Seul squeezed her eyes feeling her head pounded over Yoongi's complicated way of explaining things. It was not her first time to hear such flowery and complicated stuffs coming from him.

"Yoongi, I am sorry.. What is your point? I am a little lost here" her nose scrunched up in confusion.

"Ugh, fuck. Sorry, I really am bad in this. What I am trying to say is..this thing between us is not a joke. I mean when I treated you badly, I meant to make you understand something. FUCK! WHY IS THIS SO HARD" he facepalmed, rubbing his hair roughly with a small grunt.

She reached out to his arm, giving it a soft pat "Calm down, you really need to get to the point. Or I am kicking you out from my room." she joked only to annoy the wretched man even more. Yoongi shot her a disbelief look while she kept her face straight playing innocent.

"You are impossible" he flashed his dissatisfied smile earning a soft giggle from the playful Seul. She had never acted this comfortable around him, so that was first. Yoongi then returned to compose himself forcing words out from his cold lips.

He almost lost his grip on the can as he noticed the girl's attention was on him. She was looking at his away adoring his every action as if she's the girlfriend. Her cheek was rested at the top of her knees, while her lips pursed cutely into a pout. Yoongi cussed in his head loathing this image in front of him. Why must this girl make things harder for him?