The cool breeze was refreshing and somewhat therapeutically worked for Seul's cold heart. Technically, the conversation that she had with Yoongi didn't end well. Yet, if she could summon one person to warmth her, it would still be Yoongi.
Jungkook and Jimin had been bickering over an hour now whilst Jin trying to get in between them. Apparently, the older guy was tired dealing with their endless banter, so he paid attention to the game in his phone instead.
Meanwhile, Seul chose to keep her mouth shut, admiring the view and of course with Jikook loud voice as the background. There was no peace however she liked it. At least it was one thing that still made she felt like home, the boys.
Their presence was enough to make her feel less lonely.
She missed Yoongi.
She wished to hold him again.
Despite the fight that they had, nothing could stop her feelings from loving that man. The love just kept getting stronger and it reminded her to not give up on him. Being with Yoongi taught her to love and be loved.
How she wished Yoongi would appear before her?
Jin tore his gaze from the phone in his hand, and his attention now was fully on the quiet girl across him. He heaved a soft sigh, unfolding the fluffy blanket that he brought earlier before wrapping it around her body. At least his move garnered her attention "Are you alright?" he queried softly.
"I am alright Jin, thank you" she snuggled herself inside the blanket, seeking for the warmth that would never match Yoongi warm embrace. Yoongi again.
Could she just erase his name from her mind just for tonight? If it was possible to do so, seemed like everything reminded her of Yoongi.
There was a long silence between them, but Jungkook and Jimin were still wilding over their toes. Like, Jungkook made fun of Jimin tiny fingers and Jimin was unhappy of the teasing. So, he demanded justice. They were arguing over the size of their toes as if these two couldn't be more absurd than this.
Not long after, they excused themselves to the convenience store giving Jin and Seul break before they returned with a new topic to argue off.
"You miss him, don't you?" Jin braved himself to bring up the topic which she tried to avoid since the fight.
She nodded helplessly, blinking away her tears. Missing Yoongi weakened her soul. There was no doubt that if they ever broke up one day, Seul would find a hard time to relish the pain.
"Give him time Seul, he will come around. I trust Yoongi. He will never run away from problems"
"How long should I wait? It is hard to be away from him. The fight might happen recently but the distance between us happened for months Jin. I couldn't bear the thought of losing him. Not like this"
He reached out to her arms, caressing it slowly coaxing the sadness out of her system. "I know. Yoongi is keeping himself away from us too, he spends more time in his studio. At this rate, I wouldn't be surprised if he's moving into the studio. It is not your fault Seul. Yoongi has the control to his feelings, whether to confront you about his worries or to keep it to himself"
Seul chuckled coldly "He made his choice to just shut me off from his life. Making me feel vulnerable of myself. I am not surprised if he's thinking to leave me now, as though I never exist in his life" she rested her cheeks on her knees, staring blankly off into the dark sky.
Jin found himself fixating his sight on the dark skies around him as well, mimicking Seul position. Both of them let out a heavy sigh "Yoongi loves you Seul. He is blaming himself a little too much over the incident that happened to you. Yoongi that I know will always put everyone else above himself, he genuinely cares for you" he muttered.
"If he loves me, he should know that I really need him by my side. The decision that I made was not easy. I must think of all the odds without jeopardizing anyone, even myself. I just need him, I don't need to press charged that bastard to avenge myself. I need the man that I love. All the sleepless night..the pain.. the fear.. Its hurt..I missed him Jin..I want him back.."
"Please return him to me.." she choked on her own tears.
Jin moved to sit beside her, embracing her tight. "Hey, don't lose hope yet. You will get through this, together" he replied meekly.
"Will I be able to overcome this?"
"You will. You are stronger than this" he assured, smoothing her hair with a smile.
The fight wasn't over for Seul, when Yoongi was worth fighting for.
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FanfictionSummary: She may think she has Bangtan Sonyeondan wrapped around her fingers. She may think it is easy to love the members equally without hurting any soul. She may think the boys wont fall head over heels for her. She assumes it is okay to show a...