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Broken ✮JuicyxNarrator✮

This is going to be very sad, so, I'm warning you u-u.

Gaege's POV

I sat in my room, looking outside at the snow falling.

Grant as far as I know was long gone. He's been in the hospital for almost a year.

9 months, and 15 days; I can't handle it.

The day I was going to finally admit to him that I was in love with him. I never even got to tell him once how much he meant to me.

I've pretty much gave up on the fact he's even alive.

Sticking my earphones on my head, I turned on Spotify. 

Talking to the moon started playing.

Letting the song play, I drowned in my thoughts like usual.

The boys have come to check on me. I know they are expecting me to kill myself soon.

Surprisingly, I haven't thought about it once since I met Grant. 

"They say I've gone mad, yeah I've gone mad." smiling, I sat on my bed.

There may be no hope left in me, but I can pretend for the sake of my best friends. I started crying, running my hands through my hair.

I was use to getting these panic attacks now, almost everyday.

Just imagining what I'll do when they finally say he is gone. Forever.

Some of my hair was coming out, but I didn't care. I just wish I had him with me, even if it was one last time.

Slowly, I fell asleep in the bed, my thoughts fading away as I slept.

...

Why was I awake so sudden, Didn't I just go to sleep?

Hearing the door creak open, I looked up.

Grant was standing there, and I felt everything slow down.

My mind didn't think about this moment being fake, and that took a toll on me once I realized.

He engulfed me in his big arms, my starved, skinny frame being so small.

Not eating has taking the biggest effect on my body mentally and physically.

The moment was short lasted when he started to fade away, and so did this fake dream world I created only to harm me.

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"Gaege, wake up." I heard Eddie speaking.

When I opened my eyes, I look around hoping grant was there.

He wasn't though, he was still in the same hospital bed, stuck in a deep sleep.

"Yeah, I know, it's Tuesday." Tuesday was when we visited him.

"Get dressed, ok." He wiped my tears, and ruffled my hair.

We try to visit him as often as we can, but the only days we are free are Tuesday and Wednesday.

I threw on a black hoodie over my skeleton-like body, and buttoned my jeans that don't fit anymore do to how thin I am.

They were sitting in the car, waiting for me.

Quickly, I grabbed my polaroid of me and Grant at the Arcade.

It's my only memory I have of him before he went under.

"Hurry up, we are going to get less visiting time than last time!"

Stuffing it into my jeans pocket, I huffed. "Yeah, I know. I'm coming!"

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The car ride to the hospital was definitely awkward, like always.

My tears welled up, this not being something that usually happened.

I might have cried when I first found out, but I haven't broken since then. At all.

Trying to silence my whimpering cries, the guys didn't say anything for some reason. I know they could hear me too, I was being pretty loud.

"E-Eddie.." I sniffled, my face flushing red.

He turned around. "What's up G..?"

"I h-haven't broken like this since..it happened-"

I could tell he felt bad, but I didn't see the usual sadness he would send back at me.

Usually everyone else would feel bad, or at least send some sympathy to me.

We stopped in front of the hospital suddenly, Eddie and the others speed walking over to me.

I was so confused, but let Josh grab my hand. I usually let them hold my hands.

The warmth from it made me feel calm, and they realized this.

Unfortunately, the inside of the building was freezing.

"We are here for Grant V. Mully looked her in the eyes creepily.

"Follow me, he is still in the same room, the one he has been in since January."

Opening the door, this time it wasn't a dream at all.

Grant was sitting up in his bed, smiling at me.

I wanted to faint, but I didn't. He was actually there, his arms open to hug me.

"Please tell me you aren't fucking with me, and this isn't some animatronic of Grant."

The three of them chuckled, Eddie squeezing my shoulder. "Shut up perro, we wanted to surprise you.

Running over to him, I was finally in his loving arms. This time it wasn't a dream, and my tears on his hospital gown were real.

"Omg, I can't b-believe I lost hope.." I gripped his shirt, mumbling in it.

His hand slowly crept onto my back. "Gaege, I missed you so bad. The moment I blanked.."

"I was afraid I'd lose my bestfriend, and.." He stopped.

Sniffling and wiping my eyes, I looked up at him. "a-and..?"

He hugged my head tightly, tracing my spine underneath the hoodie.

"And the guy I loved Gaege."

"I know you haven't been eating just by your pale skin."

A kiss to my forehead, and a few more minutes of silence before I replied.

My breath shook nervously. "I didn't eat because I didn't have hope in living after you were gone.."

His hand slipped out from under the hoodie, grabbing my face. "Once I'm out in the real world again, I promise I'll fix this. Us."

"I will help you. I love you.."

My face flushed, and more tears surfaced. "I-I..I love you too."