The Moon Is Beautiful

Chapter 39

I know what made me do it.

It was his ability to seduce me with his dark gaze, and his sultry voice as he spoke to me. He knew exactly what he was doing in that moment, tempting me so much that it felt like I couldn't do anything but act on my feelings.

And for a moment, there is nothing but pure bliss. I haven't kissed many people in my life, but I've never felt anything like this before. I dare say that it feels as though our lips were made for each other, something I didn't know was missing slotting itself in my heart.

The kiss is soft, and our lips are merely touching, neither of us making a move to intensify the kiss.

I've only kissed one man intensely, and other kisses were merely peck, quick and emotionless, however, this is different. It's so soft, and so innocent. There is something so pure about this kiss that I've never felt before, but I like it.

Surprisingly, this kiss evokes more emotions in me than any intense kiss I shared with Raine. I like this more, because for one, I'm not intoxicated, and it feels as though he really means it.

Perhaps I'm being silly, but it feels as though Sin really feels something for me, something deep that he's not afraid to convey in our kiss.

I don't want to pull away. If possible, I want to keep kissing him for a long time, never stopping to take a breath.

Sin makes a move, his hand reaching up to caress my cheek. This action, it's so affectionate that it makes my heart flutter in my chest. He moves his lips against mine, pressing his lips a little more against mine, but not being forceful.

The way his lips feel against mine, it's conplete bliss. I never knew that a kiss as small as this could have the capability to make me feel this way. And the way his lips move against mine, so slowly and with so much thought that I barely know how to react.

He pulls away, hesitantly, leaving a trace of a breath behind. My eyes flutter open and when they do, I see that his are still closed. I smile, reaching out to place my hand on his cheek.

He's so pure, even with Sin having taken over, that I can barely believe it. How can someone like him even exist? I feel like he's way too good for me. And yet I don't want to let go of him.

I want to hold onto him. I want to embrace his gentle touches that evoke so much feelings within me. I want to accept his affections, and I want to give the same back.

How I really feel about him is uncertain at this point, but what I do know is that I care for him, more than I initially thought I would.

When he finally opens his eyes, I notice that the light in them has returned.

Kaden is back.

"I really like you Rosie." is the first thing he says, sounding breathless by his confession. I can't help but smile, even though I can't share the same words back at him.

"You're too good for me." I say, and its so true.

He smiles, although it looks pained. He doesn't say anything, leaning back. My eyebrows furrow at his silence, but I don't mention it.

"Why did Sin leave so suddenly?" I question.

"Rosie, I want to tell you something." he says instead of answering my question. My eyes narrow in suspicion, but I don't question his sudden change of subject.

"What is it?"

"Actually...after we visited my parents' grave, we went to my old doctor in the city. He's the doctor who treated me after the accident," he starts by explaining. "I'm not quite sure why Ms. Anderson and I went there, but we just did, and he decided to do a check up on me since it has been years since I've seen a doctor. He..."

He breaks off suddenly, flinching. I can't but place my hand on top of his, encouraging him that it's okay.

"He told me something, something that I had been waiting for after the accident, but something that scares me right now," he says, taking a breather. The uncertainty of what he may say makes me anxious, but I try not to let it show, knowing that he can detect such emotions quite easily, and I don't want to add to his anxiety concerning this topic. "He said that I can get surgery now."

What?

"Surgery?" I question, my eyes widening.

He nods. "Yes. And Rosie, he says if I get the surgery, I'll be able to see again."

Tears form in my eyes at the happy, yet saddening news. His eyes are glistening with tears that are yet to fall too.

"That's amazing Kaden," I exclaim, and then I notice the solemn look on his face. "Why...is it not good news?"

"It is good news. Amazing news. Don't get me wrong. But I'm scared Rosie," he breathes out, biting his lower lip. "The doctor also said that there is a chance of complications. Something may go wrong, and because eye surgery is so dangerous, I might not make it out of the surgery room alive."

I suck in a breath. The thought of him dying on the surgery table has my heart clenching uncomfortably in my chest. I've now only come to truly know him, and care about him, and so I cannot deal with the thought of him dying so suddenly.

"You...you might die?" I stammer, my lips trembling. Sadness clouds his usually sparkling blue eyes, and he hesitantly nods.

I don't know how to respond to that. I don't know if there is anything to say.

"But, are you going to do it?" I hesitantly ask, staring up at him with big eyes. At the end of thd day, it doesn't matter what I think or feel. It's up to him, and if he wants to take that risk, I have to support his decision and just be there for him.

But honestly, the thought of surgery scares me. There is a part of my tragic story that I left out when telling him. Actually, apparently my dad got surgery for his cancer prior collapsing, and that's why he thought that he would be okay to go to the city with me. I'm not sure how he hid having surgery from me, but now that I think about it, I remember a time when he wasn't home for about two weeks, but didn't tell me where he was going. It must have been then.

So, I'm hesitant about surgery, because if it didn't work for my dad, what will happen if it doesn't work for Kaden as well? Will I end up losing him too?

"I don't know," he answers. "Rosie, I'm really scared."

Leaning over, I grab his hand, rubbing soothing circles on his palm. "I know Kaden. But we'll get through it. I know we will."

I hope he believes me, but how can he, when I don't even believe myself.