I had many physical pains,
& it was like ache in all my veins,
but then my heart started to sink,
I wasn't able to properly think,
with every forced beat I could feel,
this unfathomable, excruciating ordeal,
all my senses were so lost & numb,
forcing me to give up & succumb,
to the endless cries & breathlessness,
episodes of anxiety & restlessness...
traumatic past triggered repeatedly,
my own brain purposely torturing me,
crystal clear voice calling me unworthy being,
blaming me for literally every other thing,
that went wrong is my mistake,
leaving me in agonising ache,
like someone stabbed in multiple places,
hard to describe it in words or phrases,
a battle within me just to stay alive,
hoping for death & trying to survive..
chest tight as if I'll nearly collapse,
palpitations as if I ran some laps,
made me wonder of the intensity,
that which pain has most immensity?
Cause when heart is heavy & brain occupied,
the potency of other pains seem to have died,
external factors only matter to us when,
internally nothing tortures again & again!
~FTK.
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