Therapy

Part 5

Trigger Warning: Anxiety Depression and talks about suicidal thoughts.  

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Maya was grumpy and moody the rest of her shift, everyone on her team giving her wide berth after she snapped at Miller on their call over nothing. She went and apologized to him before dinner, telling him she was out of line. He forgave her, though he was a little surprised that she apologized at all.

After dinner and evening chores, Maya was in her office working on paperwork when she heard a knock on her door.

"Come in," she called, not looking up from the file she was working on.

"Hey," Andy said, coming in and closing the door, "Are you super busy?"

"Just let me finish this up," Maya said, signing what she was working on and giving it a once over before closing the file and setting it aside, "What's up?"

"I just wanted to check on you," Andy said, sitting down, "You've seemed off all day, and I just wanted to make sure everything was alright."

"I'm... I had my weekly appointment with Dr. Lewis this morning and it was tough. I'm trying to process it, but it's not going well."

"I'm sorry," Andy said, offering a sympathetic smile, "Is there anything I can do? Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not really," Maya said, shaking her head, "How are things going with you? How is Chief Sullivan. And your mom?"

"Robert is home and a lot better," Andy said, "And my mom found a place to live in Seattle so she is out of our house which is making everything a lot easier."

"Good," Maya said, smiling at her friend, "I have been wanting to talk to you, but I didn't want to stress you out more than you already were."

"What is it?" Andy asked, worried when she saw the look on Maya's face.

Just as she was about to start, the alarm went off "Aid car 19, PRT 19."

"Not me," Andy said, shaking her head.

"I'm sorry," Maya said, looking at her friend, "I'm sorry for everything. For being such a shitty friend to you. For not talking to you about my promotion before I took it and not thinking about how it would impact you. And I'm sorry that I acted so crazy the first few weeks I had this job and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you after Ryan died like you needed me to be, and your dad too. I'm sorry I put my goals and ambitions above our friendship ever single time. I'm sorry I haven't been very supportive of everything that has been going on in your life and I'm sorry I yelled at you about your dad. I'm sorry Andy and if there's anything I can do to show you that, I am willing to do it."

By the time she was done, Maya was looking down at her hands with tears rolling down her cheeks which is why she was a little surprised when she felt Andy wrap her arms around her in a hug. Maya moved to embrace her friend as well.

"I forgive you," Andy said after they pulled apart, "I wasn't even mad about most of that. And I'm sorry too. I'm sorry I treated you so badly when you became captain. You were the right choice for this station at this time. And I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed it."

"You had enough of your own stuff going on," Maya said, shaking her head, "You shouldn't have to worry about me."

"You're my best friend Maya," Andy said, "My tribe. I worry about you."

Maya nodded, wiping the tears from her face.

"Are you sure you're alright?" Andy asked, putting a hand on Maya's back.