Therapy

Part 14

Trigger Warning: Anxiety, depression, talks about suicide attempt.  

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They got home, Carina guiding Maya into the bedroom. Vic and Andy were following in Andy car so they weren't home yet. Maya climbed into bed.

"Don't you want to change Bella?" Carina asked, walking over to the dresser to get something other than her work clothes to change into when she saw the two notes on Maya's dresser.

"Wait, Carina," Maya said, remembering what was on the dresser a second too late, "Oh.... Sorry. You shouldn't have to see that."

Carina took a deep breath, trying not to cry.

"I'm sorry," Maya said, "Come here."

Carina pulled on one of Maya's t-shirt before climbing into bed with her girlfriend, the blonde wrapping her arms around her.

"I'm sorry," Maya said again.

"You don't have to apologize Bella," Carina said, shaking her head as she leaned up and gave Maya a kiss on the cheek, "I'm sorry you felt that way."

The just stayed curled up in bed together for the next ten minutes until Vic and Andy walked into the apartment. The two firefighters came into the room. Vic carefully avoided the bathroom, sitting down on the opposite side of the bed.

"You guys don't have to be here," Maya mumbled, rubbing her swollen eyes.

"I don't think I could be anywhere but here right now," Andy said, looking at her best friend.

"Same," Vic said as Carina leaned over and kissed Maya's forehead.

"Well, I'm probably going to sleep," Maya said, "I feel so sick right now."

"We will be here when you wake up," Carina said, holding Maya close.

The three other women just sat in the bed quietly for a long time.

"I'm going to go make us some food," Andy said after almost two hours.

Vic and Carina just nodded.

"How are you doing?" Carina asked Vic as the young firefighter looked at her roommate.

"I don't know," Vic said, taking a shaky breath, "It's a lot to process."

"If you need to go, you can," Carina said.

"Not tonight," Vic said, shaking her head, "I don't think I could leave her after... Tomorrow, I might go to Travis's. I don't know. I don't know if Maya wants anyone else to know, but I need to talk to him. Finding her, like that... it was terrifying."

"You're the one who found me?" Maya asked, startling both women, "Vic, I'm so sorry."

"Maya," Vic said, not realizing her friend was awake.

"You can tell Trav," Maya said, "I don't care. You can tell everyone I guess. I'm so sorry I put you through this. I'm so sorry I put all of you through this."

"Maya, you do not need to keep apologizing," Vic said, looking at her friend, "I do not blame you for any of this."

Maya just buried her head under the covers, Carina rubbing her back.

"I have food," Andy said, coming into the room with two plates.

"Bella," Carina said, "Come on. You need to eat."

"I don't feel well," Maya said, shaking her head as she poked it out from under the covers.

"You need to eat," Carina said gently, "I will get you whatever you want."