BestSelf {book 2}

26.

We went back to my house after we left the hospital.

"I'm gonna order in" Kendall said

"Please order some pizza" Lani said "I feel like we've been eating pizza all day" Cassie said.

"No need to order anything, my dads grilling out back" Tay'vian told us.

"You okay Ti?" My mom came over and asked me.

"I don't know how to feel, but what I do know is it's my birthday and I don't want to spend it moping around and being sad. I can do that tomorrow" I told her.

"Well that's what I like to hear , we can talk about it tomorrow. Guess what I got you" she smiled

"What?" I asked her "an ice cream cake your faveeeee" she said excitedly.

I absolutely love ice cream cakes. My mother has been getting them for me every year on my birthday since I was 10.

"Aw that just made me so happy thank you" I hugged her and then went to go join the girls on the couch.

"Yes it is still your birthday and the night is still young , what should we do?" Cassie asked

"Where's Skylar?" Lani asked "yeah I thought she would be here with us" Cassie mentioned.

"She texted me a nice message earlier but that was pretty much it , I haven't heard too much from her today" I told them.

Which is actually weird.

"Do you have anything in mind that you want to do?" Kendall asked

"It's almost 9pm, I can have my dad set up the projector out back and we can have a bonfire / movie night. I just want to spend my day with my favorite people and not have to think about anything else, I will -

I ran to the bathroom because I couldn't even finish getting my words out when the feeling of having to throw up came over me.

What the fück? Where did that even come from.

I was throwing up in the guest bathroom downstairs since that was the closest one to me.

Today was a long day. I just want to relax. I just wanna sleep. I just want a nice blunt.

"Are you okay?" Kendall asked me

"Yeah that feeling just came out of nowhere , I can't be sick" I told her.

"Well you were drinking and smoking all day it was bound to come out" she joked

Yeah that's true. I forgot I did consume a little bit of everything.

I went to go rinse my mouth out and brush my teeth then went back downstairs.

"I still feel like a birthday isn't a success unless the birthday girl blacks out" Cassie announced

"I agree with that statement" Lani added

We were all out back sitting around the built in camp fire my father built.

"Yeah Ti I know you wanted to give stay in but uh you only turn 19 once" Kendall smiled

I don't even know why I expected them to relax tonight , I just shook my head and let them continue.

"You know Ti I agree with them, you're always in the house you can be in the house and do this tomorrow it's your birthday baby" my father said to me while he was grilling.

"Yeah let's get dressed up and go to a club. Remember that boy who's party we went to out here last time?" Cassie mentioned

"Yes I remember"