BestSelf {book 2}

27.

Yesterday was so hectic. I got fücked up but not to the point where I don't remember it ... kinda

I remember a majority of everything. I still can't get the feeling of King out of my head.

Am I wrong? No , I'm not.

I've never had a one night stand before. I'm not sure if I got his number last night but I really hope I did.

I looked around and all of us were cuddled up in my bed.

Now I don't remember when or how we got home. Because all of us were definitely drinking.

I grabbed my phone off the desk and I had a message from Keenan and an unsaved number.

I checked the unsaved number first.

Maybe King? : wassup this king, your homegirl Kendall gave me your number last night. I had a really great time witchu. I hope I can see you again real soon.

I couldn't help but smile at the message.

Kendall's my bïtch for sure.

She made sure he got my number because I was more than likely going to forget to give it to him.

I responded saying

Tiara: hey King , I also had a really great time with you last night. I've never done anything like that before , it was such a thrill.

And that's the truth. Last night was a thrill, I enjoyed myself and bringing in my 19th the way I deserved.

Of course it felt weird not having Keenan there but for once I didn't think about him , or us ... and it felt so good in that moment  being in the arms of someone else not worrying about anything.

I know I have to deal with him and us today though, I just don't know how I want to move anymore regarding him.

I think he needs help, and real help. The fact that I had no clue he's tried to take his own life more than once. It sends a sharp pain through my heart.

We can barely talk without getting into it now and it just makes me so sad because I remember how easy it use to be talking to him and being with him.

We've let our feelings and emotions get the best of us, but we believe in us so much, I just don't want it to get so bad to the point where we'd end up hating each other.

Then there's Korey ... I never really had time to move on from him or the situation.

I kinda jumped right into things with Keenan .. well not jump right into but I should have allowed myself to heal.

I looked around my room and the only one next to me was Kendall.

I have no idea when Cassie and Lani got up, but I smell breakfast so I'm gonna assume they're downstairs.

I shook Kendall a bit and she groaned,

"Why is it so bright?" Was the first thing she asked me while opening her eyes

"Well grand rising to you too!!" I said to her.

"There is nothing grand about my rising right now , I have a headache and it's so fücking bright in here ! Why don't you have blackout curtains like normal human beings" she whined while putting the covers back over her head.

"Not we got a grumpy Kendall this morning, luckily since I love you I'm gonna go make you a plate and bring you some advil" I said and got out of my bed .

She came from under the covers slightly just showing her eyes "with orange juice?" She raised an eyebrow

"Of course"