BestSelf {book 2}

9.

Part One :

"I really thought I was ready" I was telling Kendall what happened the other night when Keenan and I almost did it.

"Don't try to rush it" Kendall spoke "I'm not , it's just every time I'm touched I think of that day" I explained to her.

"Well it's only been about two and half months . No one expects you to be over it by now , shit like that really takes time Ti and you know Keenan isn't in a rush to do that anyways knowing what you went through" she told me.

"I know I just hate how we be in the midst of the moment & then boom flashbacks of that day and I start freaking out" I explained to her.

"It's expected to happen , you'll know when you're ready ... it may be next week , next month hey maybe even next fücking year but just continue to move at your pace , Keenan will not rush you or force you to do anything you're not ready for. That boy is so in love with you, he's not gonna do anything to mess things up he finally got you" Kendall spoke.

Her words did make me feel better , but it still doesn't change the fact that I want to have sex with my boyfriend , but my mind and body doesn't.

Tomorrow is his surprise birthday party at the arcade so I'm gonna be running around all day getting things together and I'm gonna have Travis and Noah keep him busy until it's time.

"You're right , let's finish planning tomorrow though" I told her.

"Yes!" She got her phone out and started going over the list again.

"Okay so the arcade fits about 50 to 60 people, how many did you invite?" She asked.

"I only invited a good 30 people that I know Keenan is genuinely friends with" I told her.

"Anthony, Lani, and Cassie are flying in tomorrow" she told me "oh Cassie is coming?" I asked "yeah she told me last night she was able to make it now"

"You know what's crazy?" I asked her "what?" She raised her eyebrow.

"Anthony doesn't know that I know what happened between him and Cassie, and I still didn't tell Keenan about Anthony and I's last encounter when we were in Atlanta... you don't think it's gonna be drama do you?" I asked her.

"Honestly after everything that's been happening, I highly doubt anyone's gonna bring up anything that happened during school. Nobody wants to think about that. I feel like we've all moved past it , I mean I know we did , can't really speak for everyone else though but it's Keenan's birthday they shouldn't be coming with that kinda energy anyway" she explained.

"I hope not , but the Airbnb for afterwards all of us should have our own rooms, of course Keenan and I are sharing , Lani and Cassie will prolly take a room together, you and Skylar are in another room , and the guys all are gonna be down the basement most likely" I explained

"Who's all staying there again?"

"Me, you , Keenan, Skylar, Lani, Cassie, Travis, Noah, Anthony, Shawn, and Bryan a good eleven of us and it's like eight queen sized beds" I explained.

"Damn bïtch you rich"

"It's my parents Airbnb" I told her

"They own it?"

"Yeah, they randomly decided one day as another source of income to get one because Airbnb's is really the new trend and they got it downtown so a lot of out of town people stay there and business people who're on trips, it's huge just wait till you see it" I was getting excited going over the plans.

After this arcade of course we can't all come back to my house cross faded, so I asked my parents if we could hold their Airbnb for the next 3 days.