euphoria. (hs)

58

hopefully this isnt a boring chapter but if it is im sorry :( writers block kinda sucks. 

 

I was scrolling through my phone when it digginged saying I had one text message. It was from Emerald asking if I was free today. I looked around my livingroom seeing that it was just me since Harry went and hung out with the guys today so I texted back with a simple yes. 

I got up form the couch and grabbed my keys and walked out making sure to lock my door. I walked over towards my car getting in and drove towards Jade and Emrald's apartment. I parkedmy car in the old spot I used to park in and walked up to the door and knocked. 

Not even a minute later Jade answered the door. "Hi!" She squealed. "Hi?" I questioned smiling not even sure what was going on. "Come in, come in." She ushered me inside and sat me down on the ocuh. 

"Boy do we have news for you." Jade exclaimed coming down and sitting next to me on the couch. 

"What's going on?" I questioned. Emerald walked out from her room and began making hand gestures. "Oh gosh it's so hot today!" She moaned out waving her hand around. "Wow this leaf on this plant is so green." She empasized petting the plant's leaf. 

I stared at her confused on what the hell she was going on about. She goraned stomping over towards me. 

"I'm fucking engaged, you dipshit." 

my eyes widened at the news. "Oh my gosh!" I squealed getting up from the couch. She laughed hugging me as well. "When did this happen!" I yelled out grabbing onto her hand. "Oh you know last night when he took me to some fancy restraunt and squatted down on one knee and pulled this fucker out!" She yelled while cackling in laughter. 

"Damn get it!" I slapped her on the wrist. "I must say I am quite impressed if I must be honest. "I know same here, I wasn't expecting it at all." 

"So when's the marreige going to be?" I questioned. 

Don't get me wrong I am excited for both her and Brandon but they are both young and still in college. 

"Not anytime soon. Maybe a couple of years but for now we're just going to stick with being engaged. "How come hedidn't just buy you a promise ring?" I asked. "Because he already bought me one on Valentines Day." I rolled my eyes smiling. 

Jade jumped up and down, "Isn't this exciting!" She was smiling like an idiot while hopping down. 

"I can't believe you're already engaged!" 

Emerald laughed flipping her hairover her shoulder. "I know it's crazy." "So when are you going to drop the bomb on your parents?" I asked. Emrald paused and slowly looked over at me. "I'm... well, you see I don't know exactly." 

"We should call them up right now." Jade said grabbing her phone.Em laughed snatching her phone, "Or we could wait for a better time. I mean they all are probably busy right now. And besides they'll probably think this some scam and me coming out as pregnant or something." 

 "Wellare you?" I asked. Emerald gasped. "No! I am on the pill and he uses condoms!" I nodded my head feeling relieved. "And I'd think I'd tell both of you right away before I let Brandon pull themarriege move." 

"Well hey now we can start planning on what to do for your weeding." "Yeah it can be our little project we can do together now." Emerald sat down on the couch and threw her head back. 

"I'm freaking engaged!" 

 +*+*+*+*+*+*+

I stepped inside my apartment to see Harry already home. 

"Hey." I cooed slipping my shoes off. "Hi baby." Harry asnwered eyes still trained on the television. "How were the boys?" "They were dicks like usual. Where were you?" "With Jade and Emerald, Emerald's engaged now." 

"What?" Harry questioned in disbelief. "I know, but I'm happy for them." "Is she..is she pregant?" "No her and Brandon realized that they want tobe together forever and so he put a ring on her finger. They're waiting for awhile on actually getting married, which is good." Harry withdrew and air of breath and looked at me. 

"Marriege?" 

I smiled, "I'm actually happy for them. Both her and Brandon are prefect for each other, they rarely argue and they always tease each other." Harry rolled his eyes, "Well good for them,but we're not like them." "Huh?" I questioned confused. 

"Babe, I can see right through you and right now all I see is wedding bells chiming in your eyes." I looked away, "I'm not thinking about marriege, besides her and Brandon are getting married right after college." I defended. 

Harry scoffed, "Now you're just lying and I'm sorry but I am not going to get down on one knee for you." "And why not?" I spat. I slapped my hand over my mouth in shock. I did not expect myself to ask that but it just happend. 

"Because I'm not in love with you." Harry sai like it was obvious. I looked down at the floor, I know I don't love Harry but the way he worded that sentece kind of hurt. 

"Oh yeah, you got me on that." I mumbled getting up from the couch. "Lace, babe." Harry hollered getting up from the couch. I walked away quickly making sure to shut our bedroom door before he could step in as well.I slid down the door feeling hurt. 

I brought my knees up and rested my head on them letting the tears out that were welling up in my eyes. A single tear slid down my cheek which I wiped away. I don't know why I'm even crying, it's proabbly my period just letting me know that it's coming soon. 

"Dammit Lace." Harry said knocking on the door. "Just let me in, please." 

I contemplated on letting him inside. This is his room but I'm hurt and upset. I am practically humilaing myself locking myself up inside my room when in fact I know I am not ready for marreige either. I barely even know Harry. 

Because I'm not in love with you... 

Hearing that hurt a lot. It hurt more than it should becuase let's be honest, everyone wants to be loved.