【Ｍｅｓｓａｇｅｓ ＡＵ】- Reddie

5 - Sin or a saint?

Warning: 
Sexual assault 
f slur 
Self harm references 

Eddie's POV 

I was walking down the school corridor to English class when I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned to see Henry Bowers staring down at me. Suddenly he shoved me into the bathrooms and pinned me against the wall. 
"Were you going faggot!?" He spat at me, tightening his grip. I tried to fight him but I couldn't 

"I'm not a fag! I'm not gay!" 

I shouted, trying to kick henry, but He pinned my hips down. He looked at me with a smirk, pressing his body against me. I tried to push him off but he was too strong, he shoved his hand up my shirt and I felt tears forming in my eyes. 

"Stop it! Get off of me!"   

Henry didn't stop, he continued to grope and touch me in private and uncomfortable area's. I started crying, trying to get him off me but I couldn't, all I could do was scream and cry.  

"You're really not a fag kaspbrak?" 

I choked on a sob, spluttering, "No! b- being gay is a sin! Liking boys is a crime!" 

With that Henry let go of me, and walked off leaving me sobbing against the wall. I crouched down, tucking my knee's into my chest. I felt disgusting, I felt invaded. I wanted to scrub every inch of my body to get Henry's marks off. I wanted to die. 

Richie's POV:  

Eddie was unusually late for class, it's been 10 minutes and he still hadn't shown up. I was getting worried, Eddie was my friend and he doesn't seem like the type to miss class, especially after he refused to the day before. Something was wrong and I wanted to know, I raised my hand asking to go to the bathroom and left the room, walking into the hallway. I started looking around for ideas, I decided to check the bathrooms. I halted at the door as I heard crying and yelling from inside, I pressed my ear to the door. 

"You're really not a fag kaspbrak?" 

it was Henry, My eyes widened, Henry probably attacked Eddie. I'm going to kill Bowers for this... 

"No! b- being gay is a sin! Liking boys is a crime!"  

I froze, that was Eddie. Eddie had said that. My Eddie. 

I felt sick, I was gay and not just for any boy but for Eddie. I've liked him since the day he first got here. But he's homophobic, he said I'm a sinner, that liking boys is a crime. I thought he was a good person, I thought maybe he liked me back. But he doesn't.  I felt my arm burning, I used to self-harm all over my forearm but I had stopped after a while, it was drastic but I felt like doing it again. ANything to take away the pain of what I heard, anything to turn back time. 
I felt tears forming in my eyes and ran off back to class, quickly wiping away my tears and sitting back down in English class. With only one thing on my mind. 

How could he say that?...