Out Of Her League

the cuts

(still serenity's pov)
I'm always ducking everything up for everyone. the world would be better if I was just dead and gone. my mom can't even stand to look me in the eye anymore after I came out to her. and my dad was never here in the first place he always works.I just wanna feel loved for one.
"fuck" I whisper mistakenly thinking out loud.
the worst part is when I did have someone who loved me I treated them like shit. my eyes started watering so I got up and went to the bathroom. I stare at myself in the bathroom mirror. I look so pathetic...I'm such a bitch to everyone I deserve the worst in life.I grab the razor that I keep inside the bathroom mirror and put it against my wrist. then I slowly start cutting. I feel so numb. I look at my wrist and see how much it's bleeding not realizing that I just did 4 deep cuts.
*click*
I look over and see jade...
"I-" I say before looking down and looking back up at her.
"I-" she says after me
"omg are you ok" she says
she runs over and grabs some tissue. She runs is softly on the cuts trying to clean the blood. she looks at my other hand and notices the razor. her face turn pale as if she were a ghost and she looks up at me.
she takes the razor from me and places both of her hands on my cheeks
"don't ever do that again it's not worth it" she says while holding back tears
"I'm sorry." i say
I grab her by her waist and bring her in for a hug. she stands on her toes a bit while wrapping her arms around my neck.
her gorgeous brown eyes I can't take my eyes off of them.
she starts blushing and lets me go.she looks away trying to hide her blush
"ok let's wrap these cuts up" she says
"the bandage are in the hallway closet" I say
she walks to the closet and takes out some bandages and wrap it around my arm.
"thank you" I say while smirking
we go back in my room and I sit on the bed.she sits beside me and gets on her phone. we lay down for a bit then I look over at her. she looks at me and smiles.that really turned me on.
"can I kiss you" I ask her with a smile"
she looks at me and blushes really hard she look away trying to hide how excited she got.
"idk" she says looking away I place hand on her cheek and pull her towards me.
our lips connect and her lips feel just as soft as I remember. her tongue and mine connect and the kiss gets more exciting by the seconds. I lift her up a bit and put her on top of me while still kissing her.she stops kissing and takes her shirt off. she's wearing a red lace bra it looks so pretty. I can't help but get hornier just by looking at it. I sit up and push her on the bed so now she's laying on her back. I put my hand down and stick it inside her grey sweat pants. I gently rub her clit a bit and here a slight whimper from her I look up at her and see her holding her mouth while leaning her head back.
"what's wrong love?" I say with a smirk
I slowly stick my finger inside of her while looking up at her to see her reaction. she moans a bit louder then before and it turns me on a lot. I stop and take my hand out from inside her and put both my hands on her thighs. I start kissing her stomach and slowly going lower and lower every kiss.but each kiss I lift her legs up by her thighs a little high. then I stop and take off her pants and underwear all at once. i then