Out Of Her League

trust issues

"Sorry...uhh-
Mike has a blank face. Staring into the unknown, confused but I quickly get Serenity off of me acting like nothing happened though he clearly saw exactly what happened...
"I should've knocked that's my apologies..."
"Aha it's fine...is there something the need?"
"It's not important anymore Im gonna go find your mom"
NO. I think to myself he's gonna tell her, SHES GONAN KNOW!! I can't let her know..Im no where NEAR ready to tell her. I don't even know how she'll react! Most of my distant family seems homophobic and racist so imagine how she'll be. I have to follow him at least talk to him about this but I can't I don't know how.
"Hey Seren.. I think maybe you should leave-
"Oh. umm yea I get it family stuff I'll move out of your way..

She leaves I'm thankful that she understands but I feel bad because I need her here with me.

Damn where is he...I swear if he told my mom I'm actually gonna kill myself this time.
I see him alone in the kitchen he's cleaning up how nice...it's expected.
"Hey...Mike?"
"Oh! Uh hey there kiddo what's up?!"
   "Well let's just get this over with. You know the elephant in the room...anyways. Please don't tell my mom that's all I ask.."
      "I won't it's not my place let's just forget it ever happened. I'm sorry I crossed boundaries and went into your room without permission that's on me. I      hope you can forgive me."

Ugh him being so nice about it makes it hard to hate him. Maybe he's not that bad of a guy after all. I guess my mom did make a good choice.

"Oh okay thank you"
Wow he's really nice about it, makes me wanna actually tell my mom but knowing her I can't yet.

Mike eventually leaves and my mom calls me down.

"Hey honey I think we need to talk about something serious.."
Oh NOO he told her I'm dead I'm a goner I can't be here right now I gotta go please. Or maybe she means something else I'm overthinking this too much. But at the same time it could be about me. Oh please no I can't do this.
"Oh uh I can't talk right now I'm not feeling to good"
"We can't just keep pushing this aside it's time to man up well women up and stuff and talk about this."
SHE SAID WOMEN SHE KNOWS...
"Mom please just trust me I can't..
"ENOUGH WITH THIS JUST SIT DOWN AND LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE!!!"
Every time she yells which is quite often I get scared so I just do as she says before things get out of hands.

Listen sweetheart,
I know things have been hard just you and me after your father passed but it doesn't matter he would want us to move on which is why I'm dating mike in the first place. And you know you can talk to me about anything ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING I'll always be here supporting you but if you feel as though something is the matter let me know.

These words, he definitely told her I thought I could trust him clearly not. But before I get the wrong idea I should ask her...for my sake

"Hey did Mike tell you anything?"
"No why is something the matter..?"
"No no well actually..
This is it, I think it's time to tell her. I'm over exaggerating about this is it really a big deal well who knows I'll just tell her and move on she'll support me I mean she's my mom for crying out loud.
"Mom...I do need to tell you something"
"Okay..what's up?!"
"I'm gay"