You both lay in silence
Comfortably in each others presence
You Kept thinking about that ring and you thought so hard about it that it appeared on your finger
You looked down at it and sighed frustrated
"What?"
He said his eyes closed
"I don't want to do this"
You said straining to talk
He sat up and looked at you
"Do what?"
He asked curiously
You sat up and choked on your emotions
"This whole deal"
You said running your fingers through your hair
Talk to me..
You breathed out heavily
Looking over at him you burst into tears
"I want to be normal"
You said through choked tears
You leaned over and rested your head on his shoulder
He rested his hand on your head
And you curled into him
He held you like he never has
He felt something
It felt like sadness and rage
He didn't want you to feel this way but he wasn't very good at comforting people
He never let anyone in
He hates that he finally cared for someone other than his mother
I mean he cares for his brother but he will never show it
You couldn't take the pressure anymore
"I'm so tired of being chased and thrown away"
You said trying to breathe through your tears
He just held you because he didn't know what to say
"I'm so tired of trying so hard to get love from people who don't care as much as they say"
You paused
"I don't want to be married to someone I don't love so that the one I do love doesn't get taken away from me"
He held you tighter hearing you say that
It hurt him to hear you say that
He wanted you to be his
Completely
You got up swiped your tears and took the ring off
You quickly walked out of the room storming down the hallways to the living room where Thor, Steve, Nat, Bucky, and Tony sat
You turned the tv off with your magic making everyone stand up upset
You walked in front of Thor and threw the ring at him
"I'm tired of this we can do the fake marriage thing on Asgard but not here because this is not what I want"
Thor hid his face smiling slightly
"What I want is to marry someone that I want to spend every second of my day with and I'm sorry but it's totally not you dude"
Thor sighed and paused
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~Blue Bird~ (LokixFem!reader) Book 1
FanficAs a HYDRA experiment you can't seem to feel anything anymore until you meet the tall dark haired man he's sour at first but sweet comes eventually the fear you had in the cell of HYDRA still lingers when he calls you darling.... 💀I apologize in ad...
