You Have My Heart, Lady Illea (A Lady Illea Novel)

Chapter Nine

My Will

    I cannot even speak you. There's no way for me to tell you how I feel. I just feel so confused. I'm hurt because I hurt you and I did not mean to. And I miss my family. I didn't even get to say goodbye. I want to make you understand why I made you leave my room the other night. It wasn't because I was angry you had hurt me.

   I was angry with myself. I was angry because I was weak and wounded. I couldn't even kiss you without there being a problem. It was not you. It was me. It's always me ruining this relationship.

I don't know what to do.

  I pray you never see these. I can't forget to burn them all.

                                                                               -Alessa