A Vacation To The Human Realm

It's Okay To Feel Confused

Today had been the most fun Luz had in a very long time. She had almost forgotten what it was like to smile and laugh without any worry as she had back in the Boiling Isles. Part of her had been scared that she would never enjoy herself like that again. Though there was still a possibility of that. At least that's what Luz's mind told her.

That despite them all coming to another dimension to see her there was still a chance they would leave and never come back. If not that then maybe her mother would forbid her from going back to the Boiling Isles. What if Amity got sick of the long-distance and left her? It was hard for most people to have long-distance relationships when living in other countries, let alone whole other dimensions.

Try as she might Luz had these thoughts constantly assaulting her. She was used to overthinking things but it had gotten worse over the years. Talking about it might help, but she had to keep her knowledge of the Boiling Isles a secret so she never got such things off her chest and this is where it got her. A nervous wreck constantly thinking others wanted nothing to do with her because she was weird or caused problems. That her mother would once again send her away, but this time there wouldn't be a happy result.

These negative thoughts always seemed to attack when Luz least expected them, and usually when she was alone. So when at the park with everyone she had been relatively safe except for the few thoughts that crept in. Now, however, in the silence of the van Luz was again alone with the darkest parts of her mind. The park had been fun and all the hours of the day were spent playing games, experiencing the rides, and enjoying the food. So fun in fact that most of the witches were exhausted and tired.

Now they were in the van on their way home. Just about everyone was asleep including Amity whose head rested on Luz's shoulder. The only people awake were Luz, Gus who was doing research on his phone, and Carlos who was driving. Neither of them had said anything for some time now so the only thing left to distract Luz was the low music Carlos had filling the van. It wasn't helping all too much.

Only a few years ago these voices were so quiet, an echo in the distance Luz couldn't make out. Even when she could her father's voice would shout back in defense. At least Luz thought it was her father's voice as she couldn't even remember what he sounded like all too well. The only thing she could remember was his words to her that seemed to remain with Luz. They use to help keep Luz's mind clear of any doubts.

"We're all weird my little witching," He used to soothe Luz. "It's what makes us special in our own way."

Luz couldn't remember anything else from that conversation, but she didn't need to. Those words were all she needed for the longest time. Only now they didn't seem enough to keep the monsters in her mind away anymore. They had become bolder after Luz's mom had planned to send her to summer camp. Being thrown into the Boiling Isles had been a good distraction that Luz hadn't noticed, but after returning home they become a constant issue that Luz tried to ignore.

Amity fidgeted a little in her sleep breaking Luz from the self-doubt for a blissful moment. The human looked at her girlfriend and smiled at the peaceful face the witch had. Her hair was slightly out of place with strands resting on her perfect cheeks. Luz brushed the strands away lightly to get a better look at her lover's face and with it came clarity. A clear fact that right now Luz was the happiest she had been in her life.

The hurtful thoughts and the irrational fears were just things in her mind. Things that were brought about by insecurities that life had beaten into her. Lossing her father, betrayed by the only friend she had before going to the Boiling Isles, and finally being sent away by her mother. It was these events in Luz's life that caused these insecurities and fears that everyone who loved her would either leave or turn their backs on her. When she was thinking clearly Luz knew none of her friends would do that, but it would probably help to talk about it.