Break my chains

Chapter 13

Pane takes me to breakfast. He acts like my body guard. We discussed to keep the relationship to ourselves until an appropriate time. I enter the dinning room and see that everyone has a worried and pained look on their faces. I take my usual seat, next to Cammy, but she isn't there. "What's wrong?", I ask. My aunt covers her eyes to in sorrow. "Cammy isn't here. Nowhere. One of the ships are gone. And everyone says she's in Antinium. With Jayce. She isn't coming back.", my dad's voice is cracked. "What?", i probably need to clean my ears better. "She's gone.", Bernard says and stares at his plate. "Why?", my aunt sobs. I quickly get up and hold her close, stroking her hair. I cried myself as well. An android quickly comes in a robotic voice repeating 'message'. A blue screen comes up with Jayce. "Hello, Helen. I got your message and war it is. I also thank you for the present that came. She's an angel.", and the screen goes off. I go into my sob again and I don't feel hungry anymore. Finally, I head out wiping the tears from my face.

Pane doesn't ask anything because he already knows. His face expressionless but his eyes are filled with sympathy. He takes me to training and I use all of my energy and express so much anger that Pane gets a little irritated. At lunch, I barely touch my coque(another word for fried fish) and let it go cold. "I'm sorry this happens to you.", he says. He looks down at the floor. Well now we have a little something in common.", I say. I stare at the window naming things I see. "Take me to my room, please.", he obeys without a word. I let him in and hold him close and cry on his shoulder. I feel weak and collapse, but before I hit the ground, he catches me. He sets me on the bed and sit there hugging me and pressing his lips on my forehead.

When I calm down a little I ask, "Can I see your tattoo?", he eyes widen in amazement. I always remember everything. "Would it make you feel better?", he asks. I nod. He takes off his shirt, showing his muscular chest. I see a hand with what seems like a girl's eyes with lashes. "I recently got this when I say you.", he says and turns around. Then I see shackles hanging from his shoulders to his back. Then he turns back around and looks at me, his eyes pleading. "I know what you want, to see my tattoo.", once I say this, he smirks. The reason I agree is because it's hard to say no to him and make him mad. I turn and slowly pull my shirt off from the back. Before I do, he detached my bra and runs his hand over my back. He kisses my back and up my neck. I close my eyes and turn around and kiss him hard, but I get back to my senses and pull away. He understands my refusal and does the same. I would but not right now. With so much happening, hey, you never know when you can get pregnant. He lays me down and burries his head into my neck on top of me. And just lay there listening to the soft music playing. But he falls asleep first as a stare at the ceiling. Since I came, there was a big change in me. Tougher, stronger. I know who I am. Especially with Pane. I tangle hands in his hair and rub, feeling the techies, he twitches a little and moves good hand under my back. Even I didn't want or mean to, I love him. Since the day his eyes met mine. And it's very weird how this happen but love is weird. Sometimes your lost and clueless about your feelings. That was me.

"Did I sleep too long?", he whispers on my skin. I shake my head. He picks his head up and brushes a strand of hair from my cheek. He gives a long lingering kiss and puts his shirt on. I run my hands through my hair and get up as well. I give him a kiss good bye and hug my pillow and cry until I fall asleep.